'I'm in love with you and all these little things.'
Louis was extremely insecure. He didn't like the way his voice had much more of an accent that the boys making it more raspy,he hated that he weighed more than the boys,he hated that amount of skin that was on his stomach,he hated that he was the shortest,he hated that he couldn't do anything right.
He wouldn't tell the boys a word of what he thought about himself,it wasn't much of an issue and plus he was perfectly fine. Everyone hates themselves at some point right? Especially when your constantly being told by management 'your voice is to raspy','you've got to much weight on you','your to short to be a singer','your a failure'.
Louis had just gotten to the point where he completely believed every word. So he started skipping a meal everyday,then it turned into 2 meals a day,then 3 meals then before he knew it he hadn't eaten for around 4 days. He wanted to loose the weight. He didn't want to be the fattest member of the biggest boy band on the planet.
None of the boys noticed not even his boyfriend Harry,they had all been busy so who actually gives a shit if Louis eats or not? No one. He would spend endless hours crying in front of the mirror because he can't look how everyone expected. He knew he wasn't perfect. No one is but if he can even get somewhat close to perfect he would be fine with that.
So,Louis was sat at the desk in the shared hotel room that he and Harry had. It was 11pm Louis was sat writing songs,he didn't need to but they had no songs writing so he was coming up with ideas. Zayn,Liam and Niall were next door to them,they all shared a room since Niall didn't want to be on his own.
Nothing ran through Louis' head so he dropped the pen on the paper and slipped his hands through his hair taking a deep breath. "What's wrong love?" Louis felt a hand rub against his back immediately knowing the familiar touch. "Nothing where were you?" I asked looking at him "With the boys,we're planning to all go out for dinner. You know the restaurant down the road?" He said. The idea of food make Louis' stomach churn.
"I don't-" Louis was starting to say before Harry placed a hand over his mouth "You have no choice darling" he said pecking Louis' lips before going over to the closet and picked out skin tight black jeans and a grey t-shirt,Louis stared at him for a minute. "I'm that attractive huh?" Harry whispered into Louis' ear sending cold shivers down his back "Obviously idiot" Louis mumbled,he stood from the chair going over the closet looking through his clothes.
As he bent down to grab a pair of jeans he felt a hand go across his ass. "Harry!" He shouted out of shock "could resist myself" harry spoke,he had his jeans on but he wasn't wearing a top. Louis' eyes scanned down through all his tattoos,down his chest,down his arms all the way to his stomach. He was absolutely breathtaking.
Harry noticed and pushed Louis lightly on the bed crawling on top of him. "Someone's got a problem with staring." He said smirking "Who wouldn't with someone with a body like yours" Louis said. Harry immediately connected their lips together his hand on the back of Louis' neck pulling him closer if that was even possible.
The next thing,Harry's tongue slipped into louis' mouth earning a small whimper not expecting it. "Hey guy- OH FUCK MY BAD" Niall shouted quickly slamming the door,Harry parted their mouth leaving Louis panting and out of breath. "Well I guess we should get ready and we'll continue when we get home sweetcheeks" Harry winked putting on a shirt.
Louis went into the bathroom to get changed not wanting Harry to see how fucking fat he was. He tried to face away from the mirror when he took his top off but it was impossible,he turned to the side staring at him stomach area god he thought it looked absolutely bloated. When In reality it was just bones,Louis had been starving himself and only eating probably around 20 calories each day but even then he would throw it up.
