You Again

Two - Declaring True Love

Three Years Later
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I woke up because the sun decided to be a bitch and wake me up at 8am on a Saturday. I groaned and squeezed my eyes shut, desperate to go back to my sweet slumber.
But no.
Okay then.
I checked my phone and realised how unpopular I was. Zero text messages. Zero calls. Zero notifications. Great yay! I texted Charli, my best friend, to meet me at the local park at 10am. She's usually awake at 9 so I'm safe. Charli was that quiet, really clever, really beautiful girl everyone has in their school. She's so sweet and amazing and I love her more than anything, in a non lesbian way.
At 9:03 I got a text from Charli saying okay.
I smirked and quickly got changed into my white halter neck tank with grey jeans and a leather jacket. The typical grey weather made me roll my eyes and scoff. I left a note for my mum telling her I'll be back soon, and to keep texting me. My dad was still in Afghanistan and I haven't seen him for the past year and a half. That's the longest I have been away from him, but I FaceTime him every weekend or if not month.
I got to the park and sat on the swings waiting for Charli.
"What's up Eli?" I heard a voice ask.
I turned to see Jake, one of my best friends.
"Yes Jake," I said fist bumping him. "What's going off bruh?"
"Nowt much, just typical same old shit. Dads being a dickhead and stuff but I can cope. Oh shit, sorry." He said putting his hands up in defence.
"It's okay." I shrugged. "Where's Charli?" I asked. He pointed over at a very revealing Charli walking through the gates of the park.
"Kinda hard to miss Her when she's half naked." He said laughing.
She was wearing a crop top that spilt her boobs out and some tiny white shorts.
What the fuck?
"Charli!" I shouted waving over to me.

"Well, I'm off. See you around love." Jake said as he disappeared before I could say bye back.

"Hey Charli," I said as she took a seat beside me.

"What's up?" She said, smiling. I was going to ask her about her lack of clothes but decided to keep my mouth shut. I decided on telling her the real problem here.

"I still love Hunter." I breaathed.

"What?" She said, looking at me.

"I still love Hunter. And I know that we didn't even go out but I don't know. I just still have strong feelings for him. And I don't know what to do. Like at all." 

"Tell him."

"What?!" I shreiked.

"Legit man. Tell him how you feel. Tell him how you've been hurting for the past 3 years. Everyone gets one bold chance. Make this be yours." She said.

I sighed. I do need to tell him. So I promised her I'd keep it at the back of my mind for the time being.

I turned on my XBOX One and started typing a message to Hunter. 

I love you.

Nah, that's too cringey.

Your my everything.

Ew even worse.

I turned my Xbox off and decided to go to sleep.

As soon as I got into my bed I went on my phone and saw that Hunter was online on Facebook. Now was my chance. I opened up his profile and clicked message. How stupid of me to do it on facebook. I took a deep breath and started to write my declaration of love.

'I'm writing this because I realise I have nothing to lose. I'm not scared that we might not talk again because you stopped talking to me a while ago. Today I learnt that everyone gets one bold move. So this is mine. I still like you.Yeah I know, I'm weird and stupid, weird definitely. I think it myself but for some stupid reason I still like you three years later. I think I have liked you since that first argument I had with you when I said you're iPhone 4S was an iPhone 4. As if I still remember that wow.But Seriously. I mean, I'm sure that you have never liked me on that way, but I have and I know it was stupid of me like seriously stupid but I can't take it back. I don't know and I don't think I ever will know why I still like you l0l wait that sounded really mean no I didn't mean it like that. But every time I see you online on Xbox or on Facebook I get happy and I think that I can finally invite you to a party without embarrassing myself but I can't bring myself to it. I like you and the worst that will probably happen is that you're gonna read this and not reply. But yeah. I probably in just like unbelievably embarrassed myself in the worst way but yeah, it's good that it's finally out.'

After staring at my paragraph for five minutes I pressed send. And as soon as I pressed send I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders. I smiled weakly and decided to go to sleep. 

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I woke up the next morning and felt for my phone. I opened up facebook to see I had one unread message. My heart was beating so fast that I almost stopped breathing, adrenaline literally dancing through my veins. 

And it was like slow motion. I opened the message and my heart stopped. My adrenaline died. Tears sprang to my eyes as I read the short sentence over and over again. I couldn't breathe and I felt my brain telling me to do something, be happy. I read the sentence one more time before going back to snuggling my covers.

'I don't know what to say.'

 UGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Damn man

That was painful

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xoxo Saph