I was never yours (s2) (COMPLETED)

Chapter 40

Guilty

I saw Kuya Rod caring Arkin helped with people around the car. "Kailangan na natin dalhin sa ospital 'to, Celine." Kuya Rod was shaking even me, umiyak na din si Aki because he saw his father full of blood.

Sinandal sakin ni Kuya Rod si Arkin, puro dugo na rin ako ngayon dahil sa kanya. "Kuya Rod faster, he's not breathing..." I can't hold back my tears but to cry it out. "A- Arkin wake up... Arkin..." Hindi ko maayos ang salita ko dahil sa kaba. Hindi ako mapa kali dahil hindi na siya humunga talaga. I don't want him to die like this.

"Arkin wake up please... Aki needs you.." Paulit ulit kong bulong sa kanya.

"Stay here Celine, ako na bahala." Tita Hope said.

"Tita Hope please... s- save him."

"I will."

I wanted for an hour pero hindi parin nalabas si Tita Hope sa emergency room. Hindi na ako mapa kali sa kaba. The memories bring back to me.

"Arkin, stop! naiinis na ako ah!" Sigaw ko dahil kanina niya pa ako kinikili.

"Bebe time na kasi, kanina kapa nag lalaro diyan eh." Pag papa bebe naman niya sakin.

"We can do that later, okay? Kahit abutin pa tayo ng umaga." Sabi ko pa sa kanya at inalis ang ulo niya sa balikat ko. I'm playing video games right now.

"Talaga? Aba hindi talaga kita titigilan, isang linggo akong tengga 'no."

"Arkin! Ang halay mo talaga!"

"Talaga naman, kasi may red days ka the past few week eh."

"Arkin, basta always wear a protection okay? Ayoko pa mag- Arkin!"

"Celine." Napa mulat ako dahil kay Tita Hope.

Napa tayo agad ako. "Tita, is he okay? Tita... he's okay na ba?" Tanong ko kahit hindi ko maiayos ang pag bigkas ko.

"He's fine now. Hindi na kita ginising, naka tulog kana kakaintay."

"Can I see him?"

"Not now, Celine. Maybe later, umuwi kana muna at mag palit ka ng damit. Puro dugo na yang damit mo." I looked down on my tee shirt and it's full of blood too.

"But I want-"

"Ako na ang bahala dito. Tatawagan ko ang Mommy niya."

"No, Tita... don't." Awat ko agad. "I'll stay here, Tita Hope." Inalalayan niya ako maupo.

"Celine, I know your not okay with Arkin. Celine I know your past with him, Arkin was a great man and you know it. Kaya siya nag pakasal kay Melissa because he needs to pay for his Dad's doubt." Paliwanag ni Tita sakin.

"I- I know, b- but I didn't listen to him Tita. I was mad at him of what he did to me, he broke my heart, he broke my trust and I will... I- I don't deserve any love...."

Kinuha niya ang ulo ko at nilagay sa balikat niya. "You deserve a love, Celine. Everyone deserves love, deserve the best treatment that they wanted. Bata kapa Celine kayo ni Arkin, but you need to forgive him. Para sa anak niyo na lang. Para kay Aki, Aki deserve a father, he deserves Arkin, Celine. Forget about your mad past with him. Okay?"

Tita Hope said I can go inside he's room. I saw the scars on he's face, tapos puro galos sa balikat. Dahan dahan ko siyang nilapitan at naupo sa upuan sa tabi ng kama niya.

I grab his hand and kiss it. "Akin, I will forgive you... just- just don't leave us, Aki needs you more than I need you. Please... a- awake sooner.." I can't change it. I love him so much, and he knows it. I love him, I care about him also.

Minulat ko ang mga mata ko dahil feeling ko may naka tingin sakin mula sa harapan ko. "Akin..." Napa tayo ako sa kinauupuan ko dahil I saw him staring at me.

"Shhh, I'm fine now... stop crying." Hindi niya man maiayos ang mga salitang binitawan niya at least he's fine now.

"Kasi pinakaba mo ako eh, I thought you just leave me and Aki again.." Iyak ko at napa yakap sa kanya.

"I'm fine, don't worry about me.. Where's Aki?"

"Nakala Mommy, he can't go here you know." Kumawala ako sa pag kayakap ko sa kanya at inayos ang medyo magulong buhok niya. "Why you left me without clue?"

He just smile kahit naman hindi niya pa kaya. "I gave you so many clues, Celine.  But you're blind to see that. Naalala mo nung inuwi kita kala Tita before your graduation? Daddy have a plan for that wedding.. I- I realized that I was just dumping you if I-"

Tinakpan ko ang bibig niya. "Shh, I know all of that after I get birth to Aki. Mom and Dad told me everything. Kaya pala ayaw nila na mag ka tuluyan tayo kasi you're getting married."

Aki was so cute kamukhang kamukha niya si Akin when Arkin's a month old.

"Anak, can we talk to you?" Mom asked. Hindi ko nga namalayang naka pasok na pala sila ni Daddy at sarado na rin ang pinto.

"Yeah sure. About going back-"

"Anak hindi. It's all about Arkin."

Putol agad sakin ni Daddy. "I want you to believe me right now." Tinuro pa ako ni Daddy.

"Okay...? so what now?"

"Remember the day you says that Arkin is your boyfriend?" Taas kilay na tanong sakin ni Daddy

Of course I remember! Tumango ako na naguguluhan. "I told you na kasi eh, hindi kapa nakinig." Sabi ni Daddy at pailing iling. I don't get anything.

Napa kunot ang noo ko dahil sa kanya. "So... what this is all about?" Kinuha ni Mommy si Aki sakin.

"Anak, I'm sorry for not telling you-"

"Dad, what's your point?" Putol ko. Nakaka inip na kasi.

Nag katinginan sila ni Mommy bago bumalik sakin ang tingin ni Daddy. "We know that Arkin and Melissa's getting married.. sorry for not telling anak." Hindi Maka tingin sakin si Daddy ng maayos.

Everything flash back to me, yung mga panahong tutol sila samin na halos mag tago ako sa kanila para lang mag kita at mag sama kami ni Arkin. Tapos alam pala nila yon? My parents know about that fvcking arranged marriage?!