11/26/24
I dreamt of this date.
Sunday morning, I kept my eyes shut though my mind was awake, and saw the number 26.
I didn't understand what it meant, I just knew that I waited eagerly to see what today brought for me.
Nothing spectacular happened.
I know I'm supposed to let go of expectations and the way I think things "should" be.
I can't help it though, I worry, I overthink, and worst of all, I don't believe I'm good enough for the things I want.
Is it possible that I still self-sabotage my dreams?
Even after all this time?
Even after all the lessons, the tears, the heartache, and reflections?
Does this count as a betrayal of who I thought I was?
-unresolved
