Heart Breaking Kids.

Money Mike

Another night that I cried in his arms...No not the man I loved but someone else.

His name is Michael. My best friend since seventh grade.

An amazing being who held my head up when I couldn't. Helped me breath when everything hurt.

I know he hated seeing me cry just as much as he hated the person that was the cause of my pain.

He is the only person who I've ever allowed to see me like that.

I don't let anyone see me cry.

Crying is a sign of weakness and by crying in front of someone you're showing them you're weak.

I refuse to let anyone think I'm weak even if on the inside I'm broken.

Barely enough strength to go through the day and then get home and fall asleep and repeat everything the next day.

The one I loved hurt me.

It wasnt his fault though. What else is there to do if you're not happy but to leave?

I'm not the victim in this story.He was sooo good to me & I know I may have hurt him too.

But...fuck I would've jump off a bridge for that man. I don't think he understood the love I had for him.

Seeing him leave was the hardest thing ever.
What is there to do when you see the one you love leave and you know that once he's gone there's no going back.

At that moment I felt as if someone had died... Because I knew something had died...my relationship.

"Don't cry baby girl. You're too good for that and it breaks my heart to see you like this." Was all Michael could tell me.

He didn't know how I felt. I didn't expect anyone to know.

He just knew that he had to hug me and be there because now was when I needed him more than ever.

I had never cried for a man before.

Maybe it was because I had never been in love before.

But it hurt so bad. Something was missing... And what I hated the most was that there wasn't a single thing that I could do to change it.

My pride is too strong to ever beg someone and I knew it was something I couldnt do.

So I cried....cried like I have never cried before. It was all I could do.