raising madison ava

two

| sammy |

All of us were sitting on the couch, Nate holding Madison. Me and the Jacks finished the crib and also put together the stroller.

"Sammy, do you wanna hold her? You haven't held her yet and she is your daughter." Nate stated and I nodded my head, taking Madison from him.

I cradled her tiny frame in my arms and looked down at her in awe.

I made this.

As weird as it is to think about, I made this beautiful, tiny human being in front of me.

Actually holding her for the first time feels amazing.

Sure, I'm bummed about not being able to party and sleep around anymore, but I know it's worth it for my baby.

I promise myself I'm going to put Madison first in my life.

My number one girl.

"Yo, cancel that party for tonight." I tell Nate while still adoring Madison.

He nods and starts texting people to let them know.

I'm now holding Madison by her underarms, her feet on my thighs and her tiny little hands touching all over my face.

She's smiling and giggling as she pulls on my ears and hair and gently squeezes my nose.

A knock on the door catches our attention. I place Madison on my hip and get up to open the door.

When I open it, my other friend Nash Grier was standing there.

When he noticed Madison, he held a confused expression as he walked in, staring at her. "Who's kid is that?"

"Mine." I reply as we a it on the couch.

"What do you mean yours?" He laughs and smiles at her. She smiles and giggles at him, bouncing up and down, flailing her arms.

I handed her off Nash and watched in awe as my little girl laughed and giggled with her cute toothless smile and I started explaining to him what how she ended up with me this morning.

"You don't know who the mother is?" He asks and I shake my head. "She's gorgeous bro. What's her name?"

"Madison Ava."

He looks at her, puts his baby voice on and says, "Madison Ava? Is that your name cutie?" He tickles her tummy lightly, "I'm gonna call you lil Madi Avs."

"Madi is a cute nickname." Johnson states.

"Madi," Nate says in a baby voice.

Madison looks at Nate when he says it again and she giggles.

"She likes it," Nate laughed.

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After a few hours, the Jacks and Nash left and Nate wanted to take a nap so it was just me and Madison.

I was laying down on the couch watching a football game and she was laying on my chest, dozing off to sleep.

I remember my dad telling me how I always used to fall asleep on him while he was watching a sports game and his heart would warm up.

Well that's exactly what's happening with me right now.

She looks so perfect right now. I still can't get over the fact that I made something this beautiful.

After a while, I felt myself begin to doze off, so I went into my room with Madison still in my arms.

I couldn't bring myself to put her in her crib, I don't want to stop holding her. I'll let her sleep in the bed with me for a little nap.

Soon, I drifted to sleep with the thought of my beautiful baby girl on my mind.