I wish I was a girl.
Maybe if I was a girl, my aunt wouldn't be so horrible to me. She doesn't make my sister work, just me. I hate it, why me?
My name is Tora Higuchi, I'm 13 years old, and I'm everyone definition of a loser.
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Dark room...church..father forgive me..
For I have sinned.
Something bad will happen today.
My alarm woke me up, again. I wake up for school, again, and again, I wish I wouldn't wake up, that feeling hit a lot stronger than usual this particular morning. I'm not the best in the morning anyways. I shouldn't make such a big deal. I went on with my routine, again, and again..I brush my teeth, take a shower and put on my uniform. "Fujimi Private Academy" embroidered onto my school vest. My aunt got me into that school, it was a mix of her money bribery and my actual academic skills, but she says "I wouldn't be better anywhere else, be glad I got you into Fujimi." I grab my wallet and put some extra yen inside. I knew neither my sister or my aunt would cook enough breakfast for me. I'd have to buy it from the street vendor after I get off the train, again, and again. I leave the house on my bike, and I begin to ride it to my friend's Megumi's house, it's for her little brother, Yuto, who bikes to school. So, we basically all share it. As I place the bike outside, Megumi walks down the stairs, and opens the gate for me. "Good morning, Tora!" She says, she always greets me with a smile. It makes me smile too. "Morning, Megumi, you curled your hair?" She nods. "I don't really care what headmaster says, being a gyaru means I don't care what people think!" That's right, a few months ago Megumi and I saw a group of them on a walk home from school, and she got obsessed with them. The ends of her hair are curled, she wears an oversized Fujimi cardigan and loose socks, and her nails are painted pink. I like this new look on her. The train station isn't exactly far away, a ten minute walk from Megumi's house. In the morning, the train station is full of kids from Fujimi and other schools that are more in the city area. The usual group of delinquents from Seijoh stall the one vending machine that works. I put my card in for train credit and Megumi follows behind me. On the train is just the usual, old women, business women whose skirts are too short to cover their ass, exhausted college students, and salary men off to slave away at a job they hate. I put on my headphones and listened to music, and Megumi went to sit with her friends. They all have curled ends and pink nails. They're getting hit on by some idiots, but I don't really know what to say or do. Megumi cam defend herself, that's for sure. I really do hate the train, if my aunt really liked me, she'd take me in one of her limos, with those dark tinted windows so no one can see my face, people would know I'm important, but I'm not really important to anyone. Another thirty minutes..the same thirty minutes every morning till I get to the city. Thirty minutes felt like forever today, the air hit colder when we got out of the station too. It wasn't winter yet, but it felt really cold.. "Megumi.."
"What's up?"
"It's so cold today.."
"Tora?"
"Hm?"
"....Are you sick?"
I looked at her confused, she looked at me confused, it was definitely cold..I swear, it's really chilly. "No, I'm not sick..Is it not cold to you?" "No? Do you have chills? That's like.. a symptom of a fever."
"It's not chills, I just- never mind, forget it." I'll forget about it, there's better things to deal with anyways, the red light took longer than usual, and everyone was rather quiet..
"Let's just go to the street vendor, okay? I'll get you a pork bun," she said. I nod, I wasn't gonna argue with her. I don't like when Megumi buys things for me, but she insists most of the time. We walked over to the usual street vendors, and as usual, She got me my pork bun and we continued off to school. I got the usual stares from parents walking their kids to school, they point to my uniform and say, "Look at his uniform, that's a good school, if you do good, you can go to school with him, okay?" I wouldn't want these shit heads near me. I already deal with student government activities, that means I have to cover for the entire academy.
