POV: Sunoo
I've been seeing that everyone seems to isolate themselves from me to be with others, it for some reason makes me sad, but alone, I stayed quiet but looking at the wall, I've been through lots already.
But suicidal thoughts still enter and exist my mind whether I do it, I just can't do it anymore, I feel like I'm not loved... It hurts so much knowing the others were like this before.
I cry myself to sleep...
I cried myself to sleep with my headphones on, I played a song from my depressing playlist, I see that that song is 'Good parts (when the quality is bad I am)' I sigh and lean back on my bed, I eventually fell asleep.
Next morning the others started I love without me, I felt left out like always, and when I found out about the lives they did they never bothered to ask me if I wanted to join.
It felt as if my world behind me is crashing, I feel hungry and the let out a grumble from my tummy, Heeseung notices and asks if I'm fine, I say coldly that I'm fine and walk away, I felt a sharp pain.
Ever since then I isolated myself and often cried and I took a long break due to my low state, which worried manager Kim, I felt bad for him finding out, I hope no one finds this diary... It would be embarrassing if they did...
Signed: Kim Sunoo
(Part 1)
Word count: 256
