𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 𝐀𝐧𝐝 𝐂𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐬 | 𝐁𝐨𝐨𝐤 1 | 𝐉𝐉𝐊 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬

Ch 41:- Happiness

Y/n pov

My heart raced at his words as I stared at him. This was it, the end, the closing session. I lost.. I agree.. the whole world, The unbeatable Kang Y/n had lost. Not a crown but her heart.

Each word he said, each glare with those anger filled eyes just stabbed my heart with a dagger and the will to live slowly seeped out of me. But the last straw was his snatching that pendant. My unshed tears brimmed my eyes as I stared at him blankly.

"Jungkook..." "I said Get out!!" He yelled at me as I closed my eyes. I don't remember anything I did, I don't know what even happened. This wasn't right, I don't remember even coming home at this point and all I remember is bumping into him.. "I bumped into you-" "Dont you dare lie Kang Y/n!!' he growled, anger and a hint of hatred dripping from his voice.

"Please... Trust me.." I mumbled and stared at him but his eyes remained unforgiving. "I said already, I won't repeat. Get. Out." His words stayed firm as he looked away. Having no choice, I didn't wanna be the reason he gets hurt. My hands shivered as I grabbed my phone and left the house slowly.

I opened the door of my house as I walked inside. The empty apartment seemed cold and distant. Slow steps took me towards my room. And as soon as I reached, I fell on the bed. Staring at the ceiling, his eyes flashed in my mind.

Anger, pain, hatred.

A small whimper left my lips as I sniffed. I was controlling my tears the whole time, the whole taxi ride. It was as if everything was falling apart again. Just as I thought my life was perfect, it gave me a reality check.

Kang Y/n, you can never be happy.

Every step I took forward, life pulled me two steps back. It was as if it was mocking me for even thinking happiness existed for me.

My hands were shivering and sweating as I gulped. His eyes kept flashing in my mind, his words, the way he snatched the pendant. It wasn't a pendant but a sign of him being with me always and now, it wasn't there..

His presence wasn't here and it felt really cold.

My eyes roamed around as it fell on the nightstand. I opened the nightstand and pulled the small vial out. I needed a lot.. a lot! As I stared at the vial, I thought for a while before, keeping it aside. Getting up, I grabbed a diary from the drawer down and a pen as I started to write.

Each word, each syllable I wrote had my eyes tearing up. I had given up cause it feels like, whatever I love was taken away. From my own mother to now my love. I gulped and kept the paper aside before grabbing the vial and pouring the content and then...

Jk pov

I opened the door with the extra key I had. I knew she was here, she is always here. I know I know, I was too harsh to her but, I can't leave her all alone, that's not a choice.

Yes I told her to get out of the house but it was at the heat of the moment. I didn't wanna say it but it fucking slipped out of my tongue. "Y/n..." I whispered and walked inside.

I walked inside the bedroom as I sighed, finding her on the bed, asleep. Thank god. I walked towards her and looked at her. Slowly tucking her strand of hair behind her ear, I stared at her.

My eyes fell on The small vial placed on the nightstand. Her sleeping pills she takes when she panics. But what caught my eyes was the paper placed underneath it. I frowned before slowly reaching out and taking it. Slowly reading it, my heart raced with each word.

'To Whoever gets this letter,

I, Kang Y/n, am leaving this world. I'm too tired of fighting and every moment I feel I'm gonna get happiness, It just results in me losing someone I care about the most.

To my dear Jungkook, I love you and I don't remember kissing anyone except you, but I hurt you and that's the last straw. Please be happy without me and lead a good life, I'll watch you from above.

To my dad in jail, Congratulations dad, Your daughter is dead too, your wish comes true..

Yours,
Kang Y/n'

I stared at the paper and then at her before my eyes fell on the vial.

Oh fuck!

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