her last one

billies home

LILLI'S POV

billie has been so nice to me i don't understand why though, honestly i think iris has forced her to do this shit to make me feel better, it really isn't making me feel any better, i just want to go home.

i walk next to billie as she shows me around her home, im not even going to be here for long, im probably just annoying her with my prescence

"hey uh thanks for looking after me but i should get going i dont want to be a burden to you" i say quietly to her

she looks at me upset for some reason "are you sure sweetheart? i really don't mind" she reaches out for my wrist and i wince at her touch, she immediately lets go and looks at me concerned.

"what's wrong? did i hurt you?" she doesn't know i have fresh scars and she doesn't need to know, if i tell her i'll bring her down with me in my trail, not even iris knows i do what i do.

"no your fine im just sensitive" i look at her hoping she believes me, she looks back at me skeptical but nods it off

"whatever you say sweetheart" sweetheart. that nickname is doing things to me... lilli! stop! you can't be thinking these things! if i stay any longer ill get attached to her even more i shouldn't be doing this, i need to leave.

"ok im gonna go now" i walk over to her door to get my shoes before she grabs my arm, i snatch it back as it starts to hurt

"please stay mamas" she says pleadingly, i really don't want to stay, if i stay over im not even going to be able to sleep anyways , i never sleep i have these terrible night terrors it scares the shit out of me so now i literally HATE sleeping

"i don't even have anything to wear" i say trying to leave but she doesn't let me go by standing in front of the door

"you can borrow my clothes love" she smiles. omg that smile is addicting i could melt

"fine.." i say quietly

she jumps up and down and dances around me grabbing my hand and leading me towards her closet. her house was surprisingly large and i don't know why, im just gonna assume she's rich or whatever i don't really care it's a cool house

she passed me a t-shirt and shorts, no this is not good "sorry, but could i have a jumper i'm a bit cold" i say nervously

she looks at me in a questionable way and takes the shirt back and gives me a jumper, it smelt exactly like her and god did it smell good.

she just stares at me with a blank stare while i hold the clothes in my hand "uh could you turn around?" she suddenly snaps out of her daze slightly jumping when she hears me speak up, her cheeks flush a bright red

"s-sorry i will now!" she turns around, i let out a soft giggle seeing how flustered she was.

i quickly change into the jumper and shorts and tap her shoulder to let her know i was changed i just wait until she responds.

"perfect, follow me i'll show you were you'll sleep" well where ill be laying staring the the ceiling for the next few hours.

billie turns around and takes me to a small room with a bed and ensuite bathroom, it was nice.

"my room is just next to yours if you need anything come in and let me know, i'll let you be" she walks out closing the door behind her, leaving me alone in the room.

i really wasn't feeling the best but i didn't have anything to help me with it, i walk to her bathroom to see if she had anything, she didn't.

i turn back around and sit on the bed in the room, it was a quiet room no noises and where coming in, just a few shuffling noises from what sounds like an ... animal? she must have a pet dog or cat i don't mind i love both.

i walk out the room and see a cute little pit bull at my feet i crouch down and pat him or her. i hear billie come out her room, when she does the dog runs over to her.

"i see you've met shark" she leans down and cuddles the dog i now know as shark, he was cute he had a massive overbite though, heartbreaking.

i stand there just looking at billie cuddling with the dog she then gestures him to go back to his area of the house. she smiles at me and walks back in the room.

i don't get why she likes me. i personally think im very annoying i wouldn't like being around me if i were her, even iris can get sick of me sometimes, well not sometimes most of the time, we fight a lot, i know i know she's my bestfriend but i don't really have a choice i don't have any other friends but her and uhm my cat so that's great for me, but maybe i can call billie my friend now?

TIME SKIPPPP
(yes im lazy)

i turn around and open my phone, its 3:23am great i wont be able to sleep then, i stand up and walk out the room, i begin to wander around until i see a wall of awards, i get my flashlight and  move it toward them.

WHAT THE FUCK!? NINE GRAMMYS AND 2 OSCARS!? WHO IS THIS BITCH HOW DID SHE GET THESE!

i lean forward and look at the name on the award... hm billie eilish. i turn my flashlight off and open my phone, i search 'billie eilish'.

*billie eilish is a 22 year old singer songwriter, co-writer finneas o'connell both recently produced the album hit me hard and soft*

hm hit me hard and soft. i walk back into the room and grab my airpods and press play and 'skinny' begins to play.

i sit down and listen through the whole album. it was beautiful, i click on her profile and see she has other works too, i press play on happier than ever.

after a while im done i've listened to all her songs and every one of them was amazing... but two songs stuck out at me... male fantasy and listen before i go. has she gone through what i've gone through? the lyrics really mean a lot to me.

my throat was feeling a little itchy so i head to the kitchen but then i bump into billie who was also in there.

"mama what are you doing in here so late?" she asks me very sleepily. should i tell her? maybe she could help

"uh uhm i couldn't sleep" i fiddle with my fingers

"why don't you come sleep with me mama, maybe i could help?" she asks ever so sweetly. i stand there a little shocked on why she would want me to sleep with her, wouldn't it be annoying

"are y-you sure?" i ask

"of course i am now come with me" she grabs my hand and leads me to her bedroom, she sits down on the end of the bed patting next to her, i sit down and she covers me with the blanket. for once i actually felt tired.

she suddenly pulled me close and i almost instantly fell asleep in her arms, she's just so soft, this is unreal for me.

1378 wordssssss!!!! this one was a cute chapter