Carson was avoiding you for the past week, every hour you'd always check your phone but he hasn't text you.
You started to worry and call him yourself, you were kinda scared to call but you did anyway.
He picked up "yeah?"
You asked " why havent you called me or anything?felt like you were avoiding me."
He replied " I was avoiding you.."
Your heart beated so much you could feel the pain on your chest.
"Why?" you asked.
"I didn't know how to tell you this,
but i'll tell you today or tomorrow whenever you want to meet." He said.
"Can we meet tomorrow? I don't want to meet you like this.."
"like what? " He asked.
"Well im kinda scared of what your going to tell me, but tell me this are you going to break up with me? Just be honest."
"No I'm not going to break up with you,
but you probably will when I tell you."
"I won't. Well see you later then. Bye Carson love you. "
"Love you too."
You both hung up.
You called your friend Lindsay and told her all about your talk with Carson.
"What do you think he's gonna say?" She asked.
"I don't even know, I told him tomorrow cause it might be bad." You said.
"Well for all I know my brother said he was messed up lately."
"Wait how does he know?" You asked in shock.
"My brothers been going to his place for the past 3 days, hes been coming home high too."
"Wait? Do you think Carson was getting high too?" You began to be more worried.
"Probably or it was just my brother getting high, wont you call him back and tell him to meet up today instead."
"Umm, alright. Bye Lindsay."
"bye y/n."
You called Carson again when he answered "yeah?"
"Hey Carson, can we meet up soon? like in 15 minutes?"
"Sure, I'll be waiting on the bences at the park"
"Okay, see you in a bit."
You both hung up, you got ready as fast as you could and head over to the park.
You saw Carson sitting there by himself to you he didn't seem like himself. you went up to go ask him whats wrong,
Carson grabbed your hand " y/n? how much do you love me?" he asked.
You replied "so much that I'd die for you."
Carson looked at you in tears, come on lets go for a walk where nobody can see us."
"Okay" you replied.
You guys went at the back of a building close by the park, Carson gave you a sad look.
You touched his shoulder "Carson hurry what did you want to tell me?"
He looked at you and took a deep breath "alright"
*he pulled his sleeves up*
You where wondering why he did that until he told you.
"Look, I have been messed up for the past 2 weeks sorry I havent told you y/n,I was afraid of what youd think of me after I showed these to you."
You stared at his cut up arms thinking why did he do it? You kept asking questions but he didnt answer them that much.
You hugged Carson tightly to make him feel wanted and he did you made him smile like he wasnt like he was awhile ago.
Jackson text Carson "Carson come home now were going to L.A in a few hours."
You looked at Carson and told him "Promise me that you wont cut your self again or try to commit suicide,
if you're sad or depressed remember that im here and always would be.
Dont be scared to talk to me I love you Carson.
Carson hugged you and said "Thank you y/n I love you too."
You went home and took a nap.
Carson was already in L.A, then your mom had a call from Carson mom.
Telling her that Carson commited suicide, your mom and his mom were in tears.
Your mom couldnt tell you, so Carson's mom told you.
Your mom took the phone up to your room, and woke you up.
"Y/n here its Carsons mother." She said.
You took the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hello y/n" she said
"Hi," What's this about?
"Uhm I dont know how to tell you this but, Carson passed away he committed suicide."
You bursted in tears.
"We'll be coming back there tommorrow for the wake hope you could come."
"Of course. I would he was my boyfriend and I cant believe this he promised ugh uhm please bye I just cant... see you when you come."
"Okay take care y/n."
"you too." You replied.
You ran away from home then went to the place where you and Carson first kissed thinking how unreal it is that he passed away.
You were crying so hard that you couldnt control it and started screaming.
Your mom noticed you werent home and your sister knew where you were.
They both ran there they heard you screaming, when they got there they hugged you while you were crying.
"I want Carson, I want Carson... Carson" you yelled.
Your sister felt really bad for you,then your mom said "I know its hard but you need to be strong do it for Carson, hes watching you up there he wouldn't want you like this Y/n please."
You kept crying, after half an hour you fell alseep, they carried you home
*Next Morning*
Carsons mom went to check up on you, and asked your mom how you handled it.
Your mom told her everything, then she went up to your room.
"Tell me this isnt real, please."
"I'm so sorry Y/n I know this is hard"
You both started to cry.
*At the wake*
Everybody was there carson relatives and friends.
When his mom took you to see him you cried so hard, missing his voice and thinking about his smiles and laughs.
You whispered into Carsin ear, "Carson why? it isnt right without you here, A beating heart just suddenly stops beating one day."
THIS IS MY LAST IMAGINE! (: WRITING THIS WAS ACTUALLY EMOTIONAL FOR ME IT MADE ME CRY WELL YEAH HOPE YOU LIKE IT😊😋
