In the rhythm of the night, a young girl dreams of shining. But when darkness surrounds her, will she find the light in love or fame?
A chance encounter, an intertwined destiny. The music beats loud, but the heart beats faster.
What trully matters...
I reached the final chapter of My Teenage Girl, but didn't make the final lineup. It was frustrating to be so close yet fall short. The agency still had faith in me, but I worried it was because I was the only female trainee.
Rookie Find was canceled due to COVID-19 concerns, which I didn't find convincing.
I participated in U2U in 2022, where I struggled the most. After My Teenage Girl's finals, many expected my debut. But someone shared old, pre-surgery photos of me, sparking controversy.
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The reactions were devastating. My world turned upside down. Those who once assured I'd debut now demanded my expulsion from the program.
The CEO told me this issue would haunt me throughout my career, regardless of my denials or truths. To avoid further massive attacks, I confirmed I had undergone plastic surgery in a public statement and on Twitter. However, I clarified that only my face had been altered, and my weight loss was due to a self-imposed diet. My body hadn't been surgically enhanced. Neither the breasts, the the butt or the waist.
However the public's opinion was against me, evident in every presentation where my teammates received support, but I was met with silence.
A message from someone I hadn't spoken to in years, Wonyoung
"Are you really YN?"
I sat on my bed looking at Wonyoung's message. Even though i had been on shows before it was the first time she try to contact me. I couldn't blame her, as i had changed a lot physically and my name was no guarantee that it was me. I had already red the message, so i had to respond, but i feared dragging Wonyoung into this. She was at the peak of her career and i would only be a burden for her.
I responded, "I'm Youngmi, YN's sister. She took her own life last year after being bullied in school"
I tossed my phone aside, struggling to convince myself this was the right decision. I'd experienced nightmares recalling my mother's words. Thinking about my mother would be saying about me in those moments, everything they talked about me on social media; it hurt me deeply. I couldn't concentrate properly during a presentation, getting eliminated early from U2U.
After being eliminated from U2U and R U Next?, I felt my life had been a deception. Since being eliminated from Girls Planet 999, I'd always questioned my worth.
Did i make a mistake?
Did my mother have a point?
Am i really cut out for this?
With all that in my mind i visited the CEO's office to resign, thanking him for his trust and apologizing for wasting his time trying to make me debut as an idol.
"I can't accept your resignation"
I was taken aback by his response.
"Why?"
He acknowledged his continued faith in me despite my setbacks.
"How could i let go of my star trainee when we are planning to debut our first girl group?"
My gaze, wich was fixed on the ground, lifted in disbelief to see the CEO's face.
"Really? But... i have failed every time i went to a survival show.
"YN... You deserved to debut in Kep1er, but family issues affected your performance. In My Teenage Girl, positions were altered, and you should have won. In U2U, the public turned against you because of someone who was jealous of you, wich followed you eve in R U Next? You're not the problem; we are. We should have supported you in those difficult moments so that you could concentrate on your performance.
"Still, debuting a girl group... I'm the only female trainee on the agency"
"We'll hold auditions from August 23 to September 3"
