No Time For a Thug

I Wont Give Up

Crystal P.O.V

* flash back *

" ayee ma , what's up witcha ? You been dodging a nigga . "
" look Marcus you're a thug . I do not do those. Thugs just aren't for me . I lost my daddy three years ago to that shit . Ig by now you know who he is since you saw my moms . I just didn't think its wise to pursue this friendship or anything else , so no one gets hurt in the long run . "
" Look Crystal your dad was a great , fantastic person. Why you ain't tell me who he was ? The momment I laid eyes on you I felt some. You weren't like the rest , I just knew I had to get you . Your pops always said I would marry his little girl one day and he made you out to be so grate and now I see what he was talking about . As soon as I find the the people responsible for your fathers death I'm out of the game . Please just give me the time of day . "
" Do you honestly think I was proud of what my father did ?!? That's not something I walk around screaming okay ? I am truly sorry but my father was wrong I refuse to marry anyone that has something tobdi with the game . And its been three damn years since they killed my daddy what makes you think you'll find them ? I'm sorry I think you should go . " I was on the verge of tears just thinkimg bout how my daddies gone . Marcus swooped down and kissed my cheek and was about to leave before he turned around and said,
" I will not give up ... bye ma . "

* end of flash back *
Not giving up is exactly what Marcus did. It's been a week and a half and every morning I get a ' good morning beautiful ' text throughout the day I get ' just thinking about you ' and at night I get ' good night beautiful ' . No I don't text back and no I haven't changed his contact name . It's just something about him . He's so sweet I just can't be with no thug . Its Saturday night and I have zero plans so I'm going to get some rest .

* dream of flash back *

My dad and I had just pulled up to the gas station after a father daughter day . We tried to do those regularly.
" stay right here baby I'll be right back lock the doors okay ? You want something from inside? "
" okay daddy and yeaaa a strawberry kiwi Arizona would be nice . " with that I watched my dad walk in and handle that and start to walk out . I had this feeling in my stomach. Something wasn't right . I just ignored it I mean what could possibly go wrong? My dad had just stuck the pump in and I glanced down to read a text from my mom when six shots went off . I jumped up to see blood everywhere . I hopped out of the car .
" DADDY! NO ! PLEASE WAKE UP ! SOMEBODY HELP ME ! " People just sat and watched my dad take his last breathe in my arms .
" Daddy stay with me . Keep your eyes open . Please daddy don't leave your baby girl . I need you daddy . " There was blood everywhere. By the time the ambulance cane they purnounced my dad dead . I rode in the back with him all the way to the hospital clutching his hand and crying on his non moving stomach .
" Daddy please " I spoke so faintly . After arriving to the hospital I was in shock the police tried talking to me but I just couldn't. My mom finnaly arrived and we were crying just holding each other . When my uncle got to the hospital he grabbed my mom and just held her .
" My baby prince ! They took my baby from me ! How could they do this ?!? " I watched my mom sob and shake .
" Don't worry. We gone find who did this. " .

* end of dream *
I woke up breathing really hard. I hated having that dream . I rushed to the bathroom to take one of my pills. They were for depression and anxiety. In the beggining I had those dreams every night it was really bad . Now I only had them every so often. I then went and got in my moms bed she knows I only go in there when I have that dream so she just grabbed me and held me tight while I cried silent tears . In the morning I'm going to see my daddy.

* next day *

I'm on my way to go see my daddy . The first time in a while . When I pulled up I thought about turning around but I'm already here so i might as well . When I got to the grave I sat down and talked to my dad while letting the tears flow .
" Life is so hard pops and I'm so confused. Why'd you have to be in the game ? Why'd you have to leave me ? I need my dad and your not here pops. Your not here to pick me up when I fall or save me from heart breaks and it hurts. It hurts so fuccing bad . "

Marcus P.O.V

I was walking up to Kings grave when I saw a fugure there crying . As I got closer I realized it was Crystal.
" ... it hurts so fuccing bad . " I sat down next to her and just held her . I started to shed some tears . This man was like a father to me . He took me in when I had no one. He helped me through all my hard times . And now he's gone . I picked up crystals chin and looked into her eyes .
" You okay ma ? "
" Marcus can we just not talk and you hold me right now ? I really need that . " We sat there for almost two hours before we got up . I walked her to her car and told her that imma always be here.
" thank you so much Marcus, maybe you are different. " she tried to give me get best smile. I gave her a hug and while pulling away I don't know what came over me but I kissed her and to my surprise she didn't pull back .
" I'll call you tonight ma . " then we both got in our cars and pulled off . After going to the trap I went home took a shower ate and then called crystal.

* phone convo *

Ayee ma

Hey

You good ?

Yeaa I'm alright , thank you for being there

Yeen gotta worry bout it ... About that kiss ...

Look Marcus I really do like you but I'm terrified of being hurt . Can we just take things slow ?

Whatever you want ma

Alright well I got school in the mornig so I'm going to sleep

Alright, I'll pick you up ?

Yeaa , good night

Night ma .

* end of convo *

I finally got her .