Falling for my best friend

•Switching seats•

Jaela's POV
We've been in school for 2 weeks and I've had enough of these people. I actually became friends with two perfect people. Whats funny about it is that their identical twins but look so different. It probably makes no sense but then again it does. I'm so weird. I can already say that my favorite teacher is my Language Arts teacher, Mr.Smith. He's amazing he just understands me.  I don't know, It's weird. Right now I'm on my way to art. I love that class it's literally a free period. Mrs.Harpor is so laid back and loves me so yeah she's extra nice to me.  As I walked in I grabbed the bellwork and walked to my usual seat. I rolled my eyes as everyone sat down it's not that I don't like them it's just that my ADD likes when I talk alot and they're all quiet.
Ughhhh. I can't sit here anymore. I said to myself.
When I finished my bellwork I walked up to Michael's table. He sits with the most annoying people I've ever seen. But at least they talk.
Haha. I chuckle to myself.
"Oh hey." Michael says when he notices I'm standing there.
"Hey." I say smiling at him.
"So what's up." He says, his hazel eyes burning into my ugly brown ones.
Well I guess this is the time where I tell you about me. My name is Jaela Victoria Emeraldson. I'm 12 turning 13 in May. I know I'm young. A year younger to be exact. I don't know why, I never skipped a grade I'm just here. Anyways, I have a dog, 2 sisters and 2 brothers. I cut and I'm anorexic.  Yep, now you know. I've been cutting for a year and have been anorexic for a few months. No one has noticed yet, I mean they know I cut last year but I told them I quit.Glad we don't show our chests like back then cause then I'd be screwed.
Haha very funny. I say to myself yet again.
Anyways, I've hid it for 10 months and I'm planning to hide it for as long as I can. I've always seemed "thin" so no one will notice if my ribs start poking out. I'm probably way to fat anyone to notice. Oh I also wear baggy hoodies so if my arms start looking freakishly skinny I can easily cover them. Yep I have this all figured out. Oh and in the locker room for gym I just change in the showers so I have that covered too.
"Ummm Jaela are you there?" I hear Michael say which snaps me out of my thoughts.
"Oh yeah....Ummmm I-I was just go-going to ask you if I could s-sit here from now o-on......" I say stuttering.
"Oh yeah of course.." He says his hazel eyes beaming at me..
"Oh my gosh, Thank you so much!" I say so happy that I can actually talk.
As I grab my stuff and settle down I hear Michael ask me if I can help him with his project. It was the simplest thing ever. All we had to do was trace an animal over and over all over the paper. Then just color it in. He's so weird and lazy. I chuckle to myself.
"Yeah I'll help, just let me finish mine. Okay??." I say smiling.
"Yeah It's fine." He smiles showing his blue braces.
While I finished my project I heard Michael and his friends talk about everything under the sun.
You wanna know why none of them are talking to you. I hear a little voice in my head. I've named her Debbie, you know short for Depression.
No, why? Why are they not talking to me. I say with a hint of disgust in my "mind's voice."
Cause you are ugly and fat. Oh and did I mention disgusting. I mean look at you. No guy is ever going to want that. Ha good luck with your future. If you don't get plastic surgery and lose some weight then you are screwed. As "Debbie" finishes her speech tears brim my eyes. She's right I mean if I was pretty I'd have a boyfriend or at least somebody having a crush on me........
"Mrs.Harpor, may I go to the restroom?" I say springing out of my seat.
"Yes, you may. Where is your planner?" She says, her voice as sweet as honey.
As I go and grab my planner I grab my tiny blade. I know I could get in serious trouble if I get caught with it but I just can't help it. When ever Debbie says something or Ana I just snap and cut. If I don't I get extremely moody. I know that because I went cold turkey before and had crying friends at the end of the day. That day I learned. As Mrs.Harpor signed my planner I slip the blade into my back pocket and practically ran out of the classroom. As I walked into the bathroom I made sure no one was in there cause sometimes I choke on my tears and I don't feel like talking to anyone right now. As I sit down on the toilet (She has her clothes on!!!! She's just sitting!!!) I lift up my shirt and check the cuts I have made this morning at home and the ones from before. I always check them to make sure none are infected but they shouldn't be I don't cut that deep and my blade is always clean.....So yeah..... As I look at my chest a pull the blade out of my pocket and unwrap it. As I bring the blade to my ribs I see my eyes blur and feel the tears fall onto my hand. For every feeling I feel at the moment I cut one cut. I cut 10 cuts at the end. I only feel sad, mad and lonley but I also feel like I deserve the pain. I grab some toilet paper and wrap it around till it's thick enough so that the blood won't bleed through. I tuck some of the paper under my white sports bra. Then I use the bathroom, wash my hands and blade (she got blood on it....) and walk back to class. As I check the time I realize I was in the bathroom for only 7 minutes. It felt like years. As I go sit down I wince in pain as I bump into someone holding a bucket of crayons and they hit my chest. I immediately calm down as my ribs throb and my stomach growls that means I'm doing good.
"Oh hey your ba- Jaela are you okay? Why are your eyes so red?" Michael says his voice thick with concern.
"Oh I'm fine I just got soap in my eyes." I say laughing at how stupid it sounds.
"How did you get soap in your eyes." He says laughing so hard tears come to his eyes.
"Lets just say don't rub your eyes till you know they are completely dry." I say showing him a fake smile.
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Hey guys H.I.G here and here is the 3rd chapter. I'm trying to make them longer but there isn't alot to write about now. Don't worry the good parts are coming soon. Hope you guys enjoyed it. It makes me happy that over 60 people are reading it already. Well thats all for now. Tell your friends to read and don't forget to comment. I need your feed back to keep writing 😂😂😂❤️❤️ love you all!!!! (Even though I'm kinda scared to😂😂)