FORBIDDEN LOVE

Chapter 2

I started to do my responsibility by writing a letter for our first activity. Nagsanib na ata kaming lahat ng classmates ko at ng mga officers just to make it perfect pero lahat ng pinapakita namin sa adviser namin, REJECTED!!.. Yung tipong gusto mo nang umiyak dahil feeling mo wala kang kwentang officer? Pero sabi ko sa sarili ko "Hindi! Kailangan kong magging matatag para sa mga kasama ko! Hindi dapat ako ang magpapakita ng kahinaan." Until such time na tinanggap na rin nya at nirevise for finalization.

I really feel discriminated that time. Alam ko kasing ayaw nya samin. So, I'm expecting na pahihirapan nya kami. At hindi ako nagkamali, He did!, nilunok ko ang hiya ko at bumili ako ng katapangang humarap sa kanya. Buti nalang may isang teacher na super bait at haba ng patience. Siya ang nag-assist samin at humingi ng pasensya. Siya ang nag-instruct at sumuporta sa ginagawa namin. Buti nalang! May mga ganong klaseng tao pa.

I promise to my self na time will come, makukuha ko din loob nya at mapapatunayan kong mali siya sa pagkakakilala samin. That he will say sorry for treating us that way.

Yes, we are not smart enough to make other's proud but surely you will love us when it comes to character and heart --- Yan yung ginamit ko para mapalapit at makuha ang tiwala niya.

In all activities, I really did my best, of course with the help of my co-officers. I show to him that even were not that genious, maaasahan nya naman kami sa lahat ng bagay, especially sa kasipagan.

I know that he started to appreciate us when he saw that we are giving our all just to do our responsibilities as officers. I know because I see him watching us secretly while we are doing our job. Pag may hiningi siya, binibigay namin, pag may pinapagawa, ginagawa namin agad!, nanginginig pa!. :) Kailangan e, we need to do this to get his trust. Also, we are always waiting for his call para kumain, ayaw naming mauna, kunwari, trabaho muna, bago sarili. :) I know that we got him there. Alam kong nasa isip nya "ayos 'tong mga batang 'to a!" :)

We became close when we went to a certain place for seminar and training. We stayed in a room with my co-officers.

We both didn't sleep that night, we decided to have a conversation, pampaantok. We talked of many things about life, we shared different experiences. He allow me to know his life.I feel comfortable with him when I knew his hardship in life and I know he feel the same.

He told me that "malayo mararating mo sa prinsipyo mo at pananaw mo sa buhay" and he also told me na mabait pala ako, of course, I am glad, especially the person I hated most praised me.

I start to tell my displeasure to him that time, syempre, pagkakataon ko na 'to while we are in good terms pa. Yes! I won, he say sorry. Ayos pala sya e, mabait, basta kunin mo lang ang loob. Madami siyang pinagdaanan sa buhay just to succeed in life. Hindi ko siya masisisi kung bakit ganoon nalang kataas ang standard niya at treatment nya sa mga estudyante. Maybe, he just want others to respect him and not to treat him like a barkada. Oo nga naman! Pinaghirapan mo yung profession mo tapos hahayaan mo lang na bastusin ka ng ibang tao.

I don't know but that moment makes me feel very special. Parang tahimik yung paligid, kalmado ang lahat. Parang everything is perfect. Siguro kasi, I never expect na makakausap ko siya ng ganon, lalo na super sungit! Yung parang gusto mo na mag-resign sa posisyon mo wag mo lang siya makita! Haha. 

Actually, tabi kami sa bus, papunta't pabalik and he let me to sleep in his arms. Grabe! Pag-gising ko, narealize ko, ang tagal ko pala nakatulog sakanya, hiyang-hiya ako pero hinayaan ko nalang, siya naman nag-offer. :) Ayun pa lang, ang laking factor na nun para magging crush ko un e. I really love a mysterious type pero pag nakilala mo super bait pala. That's exactly He is. I remember nung papunta palang kami, I don't know why but he get my bag and carry it with his baggage at nung pauwi na hinatid niya ako sa bahay and talked to my mom. As if, sinoli na niya ako. I really feel touched. :) Siguro kung appropriate age namin? baka mahal ko na sya agad! hahaha... just kidding! :)