Speechless {H.S.}

2

   It's about 6pm and Lexie and I are just leaving the office. We both decided that we would get some dinner and bring it back to the apartment.
" how about we get some pizza and a salad?" I suggest to Lex
"Yeah that's perfect because Grace and Blair can have some if they want."
We both walked together to a local pizzeria that was a block or two away from our apartment, we ended up getting two pies and a Cesar salad.

  When we arrived back to the building we live in we took the elevator up to the 5th floor, walking towards our front door I could hear music playing loudly. Grace and Blair must be home waiting for us. Living with 3 other girls you end up getting used to loud music playing all the time and random people you never met showing up at your front door. Opening the front door the music got even louder, I think it was a Taylor swift song playing. Lexie and I walked into the apartment together to put the pizzas down on the kitchen countertop, Grace must have somehow heard us coming in over the loud music because she ran out of her bedroom singing the lyrics to the song Welcome to New York.
"We got pizza!" I yelled to Grace over the loud music. I guess she realized how loud it was because she ran over to her phone to turn the music down.
"Awesome, oh um Blair wanted me to tell you guys she's getting dinner with some guy tonight, she will probably meet up with us later before we go to 1Oak." Grace tells us both
"Ooo she's with a guy!?" Lexie says excitedly
I decide to take a slice of pizza and some salad into my room and sit down on my bed. That's when my phone begins to ring and I see its my brother Massey calling me. Oh great the dreaded phone call that I've been expecting all day.

"Hey Massey." I say into the phone
"Hey Clarke, how are you feeling. I can't believe it's been 3 years now."
It's been 3 years since I lost my family, theyve been gone for 3 years. The whole day I distracted myself from thinking about them or that night And now my brother has to ruin that all. The memories begin to flood back into my mind.
"Yeah I know it's crazy." I say back with a tear beginning to fall down my cheek. I don't like to think about my past or let alone talk to it. The girls don't even know that much about it, they know I lost my family, but no one knows the full story besides Massey and Margaux.
"I know this is a hard day for you Clarke, but you know if you need anything you can call me at anytime. I'm here for you, always" my brother tells me.
"I know Mass, but isn't it a hard day for you too? You don't need to baby me I'll be okay." I lightly laugh at him.
"Of course this is difficult for me too and I'm not trying to baby you. You're my sister and I care about you.... Listen Margaux and I are going to get some dinner with friends. If you need anything call me, but I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"Okay Massey, I love you."
"I love you too kiddo"
Once I hear the call end I lay back on my bed and silently let the tears out that I've been holding in all day. I can't even eat my food, thinking about what happened that night three years ago makes me completely loose my appetite.

I guess I somehow ended up falling asleep because next thing I know I'm being woken up my Lexie.
"Hey Clarke, you gotta wake up we are leaving soon." I hear her say to me quietly.
"Okay, I'm up" I say while sitting up on my bed and stretching my arms about my head.
Lexie walks out of the room with my food in her hands. I get out of bed to look in the mirror, my hair is mess on top of my head so I quickly redo my ponytail. I decide to add some eyeshadow to the makeup that is already on my eyes and I re apply the lipstick I always wear. I decide to put on these awesome black heels that lace up in the front. They remind me of something Kylie Jenner would wear. The shoes look great with the dress I've been wearing all day. Grabbing my phone and purse I walk out of the room to see that the rest of the girls are waiting for me.
It's a little after 11pm, so 1 OAK has just opened its doors. We take the 5 minute cab ride to the club. Once we arrive we all walk towards the front door of the club, one of the guards at the front door is a friend of ours so when he sees us he immediately lets us walk right in. we don't have to show them IDs or anything. Walking into the dark club the blasting loud music begins to fill our ears, the place is packed tonight. There's celebrities, models and all types of wealthy people filling the club. My friends and I walk over to a promoter named Jake that we have known for a while. He got the us a table and free drinks.
"Hello girls, how are you?"
"We're great " Grace responds for the rest of us
Jake can be a little creepy sometimes, he's a nice guy but can get a little too touchy for any of our likings. But hey we get free drinks when we're with him. I pour myself some vodka and cranberry juice and the bitter taste fills my mouth with the first sip, I cringe at the taste but continue drinking it. Tonight I need to drink, I need to forget about what happened to my family. Lexie, Blair and Grace begin to drink too and start talking to some people we know.
I quickly finish the first drink and refill my cup, the loud music is giving me a headache but I know I will get used to it. While standing by our table I see that there's another large group at a table near us, it's a lot of celebrities. I recognize some from TV or from the magazine, Margaux always has different celebrities stopping by. Out of the corner of my eye I see the one and only Harry styles.