"NO FUCKING WAY," Zoe screams. "What other Leigha goes here? Stop being so naive its you dumbass."
"I don't think it's possible for someone like him to ever like me," I mutter quietly hoping she doesn't hear me. "Are you stupid? Seriously he practically almost kissed you in art and yet you still don't believe he likes you?" Zoe screams loudly.
"Zoe for fuck sakes shut up I have more important things to worry about than some boy," I say, putting my head in my knees. "I'm sorry okay? I just think this'll be great for you to finally get out of your shy phase and get some" she says looking at me.
"I've been single my whole life what could possibly change that now? You know I have bad luck with boys, nothing ever works out. I'm not getting my hopes up," I look up at her with tears in my eyes.
"You know what you need a good party to stop you from being so sad, someone from history is throwing one we should go," she says looking at me expectantly. I give her the "you've got to be kidding me" face. "You do realize you're talking to me right? Besides my parents would kill me in my sleep if I go out this late, especially to a party."
Her facial expression changes from being happy to pissed in two seconds. "I am so fucking tired of you sitting here and waiting for something to happen. You need to get out here because I'm pretty sure you're going to be a cat lady," I open my mouth to say something but stop when she glares at me," don't you fucking dare interrupt me. I am trying to get you to do something with your life. Things happen for a reason, but you staying in here on Tumblr and Wattpad is not a reason. Nothing will ever happen if you don't experience life so you are going to this party whether you want to or not. But just so you know if you do say no I will drag you by your hair all the way to the party. So get up and get ready it starts in an hour," she says opening the bathroom door.
I struggle to talk in fear she'll wipe my floor with my face, and my room hasn't been cleaned since we've moved here.
"There's just one tiny setback," I say looking at her hesitantly. "What is it?" She asks tightening her fists. "I don't know how to wear makeup and I don't have an outfit," I say closing the door quickly when I see her launch at me.
"Leigha open this damn door," she says while knocking on the door with her fists" I have a dress for you and I'll call my cousin so she can do your makeup just get ready I'll be downstairs," I hear her say as I hear footsteps walk out of my room.
I sigh and lean against the door, sliding on the ground. Tears build up in my eyes as I think about 9th grade.
*********Flashback*********
It is so hard staying awake in this class I think to my self as I hear my teacher say something in Spanish.
I'm woken out of gaze when the really really cute boy asks me for a pencil. I just stare at his face because my god how did the world create someone so beautiful. He snaps his fingers in my face and I snap out of it.
"Hey don't fall asleep on me, can I borrow a pen were about to take a test," he says gently poking my face with a smile.
Oh my god I'm gonna have a heart attack. Holy fudge balls his fingers......my face....touched......is this what heaven feels like?
All of a sudden a packet of paper lands on my desk. I look up to see my Spanish teacher giving me the eyebrow.
"¿Que es esto?" I ask in Spanish. She replies with "Su prueba espero que estudiara para" I gulp and nod while looking down at my test. Fuck I should've studied for this, dammit Leigha.
******1 hour and 30 minutes later******
You know that feeling when you've been in your phone for a long time? And your eyes get kinda numb and it gets worse when you look away? Well I'm feeling that write now but it's because of paper. PAPER. My eyes are so numb I feel like they're bleeding and I can't feel them. It's scary.
After the test I walk out the class to my locker, with my eyes barely open. And I just stop.
I see him. The boy who's broken my heart more than I can remember my heart beats out of my chest and I almost stumble to the ground. I have to get to my locker, fuck I forgot his is right next to mine.
I slowly walk to my locker, avoided the gaze of the couple who seems to want to make out right by me. The couple? Is him and his 3rd girlfriend this month. I drop my Spanish book and I curse myself because I didn't want to be noticed.
"Blushkins?" I hear him say and my heart drops to my feet. I've been trying my best to avoid him and yet I fail. Of course I did. And he still remembers my nickname, blushkins....
I look over softly and give a really fake smile and say, "Hi Lucas." His face hardens and I look back to my locker. He used to hate when I called him that, we swore to each other that we would never call each other by each other's name. I turn back to my locker and get my English binder when I feel a presence behind me. I feel him on me and I don't want to but it feels so good but I can't let him know he affects me because he'll hurt me again.
I feel his hands wrap around my torso and I feel his head lay on my shoulder and him whisper, "I've missed you so much angel" I squirm to get out of his grasp but he holds me tighter. "Don't you miss me? I've missed you a whole lot. I still remember you moaning my name when I put my hands down your pants. You miss that don't you?" He smirks against my neck. For once in my life I've never felt more worthless than this right now. He hurt me and all he remembers is that night. That night changed everything for me.
But I wasn't having it, I stomped my foot on his his toes, slammed my locker and ran down the stairs. Tears came rushing down my eyes and I tried so hard not to show them when a group of girls walked past me laughing. "I can't believe she thinks she's special." "I doubt it he fucked me two weeks ago why would he want someone like her?" "I heard she let him touch her, what a whore"
I couldn't take it anymore I couldn't, I was loosing it slowly. I feel someone grab my arm gently. "Leigha? What's wrong, are you okay? I gaze up at Josh, the cute guy from Spanish. His eyes look so mesmerizing, it almost makes me forget about what happened.
"Um...ahah I uh stubbed my toe on the stairs really bad and it hurts a lot so I uh...I'm gonna go...see you Monday," I say stuttering before walking away. I can't do this anymore I can't.
*******Back to Present******
I didn't realize I was in the shower for 15 minutes just standing underneath the faucet. I hear Zoe knocking on the door asking me if I'm okay. "Yeah I'm fine I'm getting out now"
"Ella I look ridiculous, what is this brown thing? And this mascara is making me feel uncomfortable," I say looking in the mirror.
Ella gives me the same face Zoe does when she's about to kill me,"Leigha you look goddamn perfect right now and that's concealer, seriously you look really pretty right now, so get out of this house and have so fun."
"Ready to go?" Zoe asks with a smile. "Fuck yeah I'm ready to get my jam on, I'm gonna surprise people with my dance moves," I say doing the sprinkler.
"Oh god you're so embarrassing, let's go," she says laughing her ass off.
Let the adventures begin.
*******AUTHORS NOTE********
I feel like crap right now because I haven't been updating, but I'll try my best to upload more chapters
The next chapter is going to be crazy so be prepared.
Bye!!
P.S. I just realized how short that was, I suck at this don't I?
P..S.S final time I promise see ya next time
