이희승 :: The Curse of Love: Unloving You

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Jay's POV

❝I'll just go to buy a water.❞ Noona simply told and I just nodded. As I saw her entering 7/11, I didn't waste time and went to get her phone that was left on the table.

Her phone was vibrating continuously as she received a message from Heeseung hyung.

Heeseung: Where are you?

I scoffed after seeing the latest message from hyung and then I went to turn on her airplane mode, in case that hyung will attempt to call noona.

I bet that he's driving crazy and went to look over for noona. But, I don't wanna waste this precious opportunity that's why I'm doing this. I carefully placed back her phone after turning on airplane mode and clearing all Heeseung hyung's messages that kept popping up on her screen.

Changhee hyung: I'll call Seolhee within seconds. Sorry to bother your time hanging out together but could you lend us some time to talk to each other? I really wanna talk to her.

After seeing the message, I realized that nothing happened until Seolhee came back with two water bottles in her hand.

I was almost facepalming myself that I forgot to tell Changhee hyung that I turned on the airplane mode on her phone so, I rushed to type the message and send it to hyung.

I continued eating after placing my phone on the table. Without even exceeding three minutes, Changhee called. I went to answer the call and acted normally. ❝Changhee hyung, is something wrong? Why did you call?❞ I started.

Even if I'm not looking at noona, I could already imagine her reaction after she heard that Changhee hyung called me. ❝Yes, noona was with me, what's the matter?❞ I hummed even if Changhee hyung wasn't talking on the other line and was waiting for me to pass my phone at his younger sibling.

❝Noona, he wanted to talk to you. I think is something urgent.❞ I told as I handed the phone to her. Her hands were trembling as she went to reach my phone that I was holding.

I stood up and left her alone on the table just to let the two of them talk alone.

𝕮𝖚𝖗𝖘𝖊 𝖔𝖋 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮

Seolhee's POV

❝Ch-Changhee oppa...❞ I was nervous as hell when he suddenly went to call Jay out of nowhere. Luckily, Jay gave me space to talk with my brother alone.

God, what was he thinking and called Jay instead of me?!

[❝Well, I'm not surprised that you're with Jay.❞] I bit my lower lip hearing my older brother's voice. What the fuck should I do now? ❝D-do you need something?❞

This is so awkward. I once again remembered the day that both me and Heeseung were getting scolded by him. I heard him humming. [❝I just need to talk to you, that's all.❞]

❝About what?❞

[❝About you and Heeseung.❞] This is so over! I felt like I couldn't breathe all of a sudden. My heart was beating so fast and even my lips became dry. I can't, I can't continue this upcoming talk anymore. I wanted to hang up the call but I couldn't control my hands.

[❝Don't hung up. I just wanted a serious talk with you.❞] His voice were serious. I'm kinda glad that he wasn't with me or else, I will be frozen at my place and rather won't talk.

I heard him breathe out before he even started to let out some words. [❝You and Heeseung are still together, am I right? Even though that I already warned you both,❞] I shut my eyes. Damn, this is driving me nervous!

I couldn't let out a word. [❝You two never listen, do you? Did you even think what would be the result of what you're doing right now, Seolhee?❞] I gulp the lump that was blocking my throat.

My brother's cold voice, scary tone and his words... I couldn't handle it. I felt like I almost ran out of oxygen by just hearing his voice, even though it's on the phone.

If I hang up right now, that'll make him drive mad and I don't want that because he might come for me. ❝I-it's e-either me o-or Heeseung... w-will gonna... a-abandon... or worst... jail.❞ I answered with a stuttering voice.

[❝See, you know the answer. So why do you still going to continue the wrong doings?❞] I once again didn't say a word. The tears started to overflow from my eyes. My cheeks are starting to get wet, because of the tears that were flowing out.

My hand slowly moved the phone away from my ear and placed the phone on the table. I wanna hang up... I don't wanna listen... I don't wanna continue to listen to your words, brother... It's hurting me. A lot. [❝Your cry won't do anything.❞]

I continued crying. [❝Broke up with Heeseung. It was the only way to turn everything back to normal.❞] My heart couldn't take what he have told next. My chest is hurting as hell.

"Run away with me, baby. Let's lift the curse in our love, shall we?"

"Stop stuttering, baby. It's just me, Lee Heeseung, your brother— no. Your lover."

"It's not fun if you're not here."

"I've been denying these feelings for three years. After that year, I stopped."

"I've been in love with you for years, baby."

Stop...

I broke down. I couldn't hide my emotions anymore and continue to cry. My mind... was on its own. Heeseung's every word kept flashing back on my head and it wasn't helping at all. It makes my heart sink even more.

"I fucking dated those girls just to forget my feelings towards you, Lee Seolhee!"

"I like you, Lee Seolhee, I love you, not as a sibling... but a lover instead. I don't care what they'll think of this shit. But this love... is real."

"I thought about it. Yes, this is incest. Do you think I don't know that? But how could I stop?"

"Do you think you're the only one who's thinking that? I know. It's wrong. It's wrong to love you like this. But what am I doing right now? What am I feeling right now?"

"I thought about it, Seolhee. I won't run away. I already fought myself... but I got defeated. I can't run anymore, Seolhee. Myself... even know that I can't turn my head away when I'm with you."

"I'm in love with you. I can commit a sin just to fight my feelings for you... I'm no good at following the laws and I will never be."

I can't... I can't...

This is frustrating me. I can't. I keep hearing his words in my mind. I keep hearing his sweet voice while singing. I can't break up with him...

"Don't ignore my love for you, please..."

I went to touch my forehead after remembering those words after he placed his soft lips on my forehead. What am I going to do now? One wrong answer, it'll be over. But... both choices are risky and so wrong for me!

Yes... my first choice was Heeseung but... what about them? What does my family feel? I cherish them both and they are my family.

Loving you...

Is a losing game...

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