stick around till the end for special lyrics!!!
i thought that since i never post this story bc i hate it and *five years* (confetti) id post this little thingy. so yep. hope you enjoy <3
this first part is just a little note from me.
so. five years. woah. like so much is in that one word. woah. breakups, hook ups, songs, albums, departures, and so many new chapters. some people ask me (well about 9/10 people i meet) "why do you even like them". they just don't get it. ive been through a lot, especially lately, and ive done two things to help me cope: watch my fave youtubers (connor, caspar, joe, oli, jim, phil, dan, etc. etc.) and mostly: listen to the boys. whether it be the old video diaries or album upon album, i listen to their voices and i just think: where would i be without them? they've shaped me, my personality and my lifestyle. it probably (most likely) seems lame from an outside pov, but to you guys reading this, this must be pretty dang relatable one way or another (lol). they cheer me up, they make me realize that, yeah everyone has their own set of problems. everyone has stereotypes they feel they must fit into. niall for instance: his hair. yes, i know, we all adore the blonde hair (omg yes), but what i want more than his blonde hair is his brown hair. stupid management. they make his dye his hair for publicity. if he had purple tyler oakly hair (or lavender, haha) we'd still love him to death.
my mum brought up a good point the other day; she said, "how do you love them? you don't even know them." to which I responded with, "but i do know them." [silence] "i hate when people look up to celebrities" [mom talking, me silently fuming] "you don't know them. you can't be sure that they are good people. that's just how the Internet and such make them out to be. they're probably total bi***** {okay not exactly what she said but pretty much. i tuned out.} when she was done I sat fuming. then, "i love them. i admire them. i look up to them. they may be jerks out of the spotlight but at least they aren't jerks in it. at least they care enough about me-us-to not be rude." okay, so I didn't say that exactly but it's what I was thinking. I just stayed silent. what im getting to with all of this is really simple. these guys are me. they make up who i am and if you don't respect that, you know what im gonna say. i love them. thanks for five years guys <333
well, rant thing or whatever that was is out of the way.
now, the part we've all been waiting for.......
torn. sung by one direction on december twelfth twenty ten
[LIAM]
I thought I saw a girl brought to life
She was warm she came around
She was dignified
She showed me what it was to cry
You couldn't be that girl I adored
You don't seem to know or seem to care
What your heart is for
But I don't know her anymore
[HARRY]
There's nothing left, I used to cry
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine
[HARRY, LOUIS, NIALL]
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn (I'm already torn)
[HARRY]
There's nothing left, I used to cry
Inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine
[HARRY, LOUIS, NIALL]
I'm torn
Torn
I'm torn
[HARRY]
Nothing's fine
I'm torn
[ALL]
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying broken on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
[ZAYN]
I'm already
I'm already torn
[ALL]
Torn
Oooh
Torn
