𝐃𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐎𝐟 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞 18+

CHAPTER VII

 C H A P T E R 7: DITCHING AND BITCHING

Sofie Malone-

I've been tossing and turning, fluffing my pillow every five minutes. I was a mess.

I couldn't get him out of my mind, nor what he last told me. "Think about what you want, and when you're ready, I'll be waiting."

"Think about what you want, and when you're ready, I'll be waiting."

"Think about what you want, and when you're ready, I'll be waiting."

Replay after replay, thinking about the big decision.

I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of an immediate yes or no.

I was gonna make him wait.

I mean, I just met the guy, and he introduced me to something so big, I haven't even fully understood it yet.

—Yet every time you see him, it makes you close your legs shut.

Oh, shut up.

No, but actually, it's very attractive how the man is always paying attention.

How he always analyzes me.

But do I really want to give him control? Do I really want him to be the boss of me? Be the one that I trust?

I had read about BDSM several times, but I would soon get embarrassed and chicken out of it. The only thing I knew was the basics.

My brain was going 100 miles per hour for God knows how many damn hours. I grabbed my phone to check the time. 2:56 AM. Jesus, seriously? Two hours?

I put the phone back on my nightstand and put my head on my pillow, staring at the ceiling with only one thing in mind. What if I tell him I need time? You know, to get to know him? It's honestly for the best. That way, I can get to know him and take things at my own pace.

And as if my brain had a mind of its own, I didn't even realize I had gotten my phone in my hands and was already on the phone app? The hell? Yeah, it crossed my mind once to call Rafael, but I didn't even realize when I got on my phone.

Okay, I'm gonna call once, and if he doesn't answer, I'll call him tomorrow during the day, 'cuz he's surely already sleeping.

I click on his name, illuminating my phone screen, and in a matter of seconds, it was already ringing. On the second ring, he surprisingly answered. How's he not sleeping?

"Hello?" I begin speaking into the phone.

"You couldn't sleep?" he asks, yet it sounds more like he's just realizing that I haven't slept a wink.

"No, because of you and your damn offer." I reply. I forgot to say, when I don't sleep, I get grumpy.

He simply lets out a dark chuckle in return as if he's amused with what I just said.

"Watch it," he replies, taking in a breath like he's holding back from saying something.

It's a pause as I stay quiet, and he continues. "So what's your decision? Yes or no?" he asks. I let my brain sink that in and fully understand before answering.

"It's still all new to me, and I don't really know you. I want to get to know you, and I guess time will give me the answer?" I question, but it comes out more as a statement than a question.