How desperate am I really? I am sick in the head. Who pretends they are dead? Oh yeah! Me.
10 years ago, my life turned around. One mistake. That's all it took. What the hell am I going on about? I'll tell you.
You know One Direction? That band. Well, I used to be best friends with them when I was younger. We were all so close as kids. I loved them all, so much.
You know Louis Tomlinson? Yeah. He ruined my life.
Not wanting to be my friend anymore. He persuaded the other boys as Louis was looked up to. Like... The leader!
He left me. And so did everyone else. Just cause I was weird? Look who was talking...
I met them again, 2 years ago. They tried to get close to me. But... I was terrified. I never really let anyone in on me since that day. I was scared they would leave me too.
I had to get away. I didn't want to be friends with them anymore. I wanted them to leave me alone. But they were capable of that.
So I did a dreadful thing. I pretended to die. Only to them... But, obviously... They told the world. They only knew my first name. Anything else and I was dead meat.
I really ran. I told my mum to not invite them to the so called 'funeral'. I left my mum but she understood. I mean, I was 18! I was allowed.
I lived with my best friend, Cassie. I still do to this day. I let more people in. Some let me down. But that's life!
You feel awful when people think you are dead. You can't pursue your dreams! I always wanted to be a actress in the West End. Nope. They would find me!
Who wanted to live this way?
Not me...
So what happens if they find me. Worries run through my head everyday.
But that's life.
Well... My life.
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Hi! I hope you like this one! But I'm afraid it's not out until SUMMER 2013! Sorry guys. I have about 5 story's at the moment but I really wanted to write this down. But still share to you guys. I am really sorry I haven't uploaded like ANY ff lately except 1. But school starts Monday so I won't write as much which is ridiculous because I barely write at the moment. Like British Bums updates SOOOO MUCH! I will write more on my phone guys I promise even though my hands are aching just from writing this. Oh yeah! The boys know each other from kids in this story. So they form One Direction themselves. Hope you guys can wait for this one! And if you want to write a collab on this story or a new one, Comment below and Private Message me or write on my wall! I will reply as soon as possible because I really want to write a collab! Anyway, sorry for this but I LOVE YOO!
