Dear Diary,
Oh there he is, the love of my life. Kuwentohan kita ha. Ito kasing lalaking to siya kasi talaga yung alam mong the more you hate the more you love? Ang pinagkaiba lang, nakakapikon na talaga, as in gustong gusto mo na nga na e hate kaso wala eh, love mo talaga. Alam mo sa anim na taon kong di umuuwi siya lagi kong kausap, excuse ko lagi syempre mangangamusta. I tried ignoring him too, sabi ko kasi baka pag wala na kaming masyadong communication mawala nadin yung pagkagusto ko sa kanya, yung pagmamahal ko. Sa totoo lang,di ko naman alam kung mahal ko na talaga siya, I was 18 then, I dont know what love is. Pero sige na nga, dahil feeling ko talaga mahal ko, let's call it love then. And the feelings stayed with me kahit 24 na ako.
Siya yung lalaking sobrang pasaway, ang kulit talaga, parang bata, what I like about him eh mapipikon ka talaga pag nantrip siya pero when you're serious and you need him to be serious, he will. I can talk about anything too, pagkakausapin ko siya, pag di siya makarelate, he will ask like he is interested in everything you say. He can also dance, well not so much pero he looks like a guy na trying hard sumayaw but not in nakakainis na way, in a cute way. I like his voice too. He can sing well, I remember that one time he was behind me and he suddenly sang "tumingin saking mata" and I was so amazed I looked back and for a moment I thought we had that "Silence" that Love, Rosie kind of silence. He is a good brother too; growing up I have been so close with my sister kaya people who are close to their siblings really touches my heart. I have been teasing him about him watching girly and children shows with his younger siblings but behind all that, I really admire him.
I don't really like dimples -it looks weird- though that's one thing other people like about him. He's not even my type, pero you know, types don't exist, you say you don't like them pero in the end sila padin. He is my friend, my critic, my go to person, my human diary, human reminder minsan nga human alarm. It is said that in order to have a happy life, marry your bestfriend but I dont think that is possible, I'm too fucked up for relationships. Maybe I'll just admire and love him from afar, like what I do eversince.
