Life's New Battle: Niall Fan Fiction

Forgiveness

Kelli's P.O.V 

My head was pounding and I could feel my heart beating in my throat. I wasn't fully ready to hear him out. Hell, I was barely sober enough to hear him out, but all that he did for me, when I was just being an asshole to him, shows that he wants to prove himself. Why not? 

He answered and my phone almost slipped out of my hands due to how sweaty my palms were. Why was I so nervous. He was the one that had things he had to prove and get off of his chest. I didn't know how to get around this. I am usually known to be the person to play things cool and never let people in. But all of a sudden this blonde leprechaun comes into my life and my palms are sweating over a simple conversation. 

"Let's get this over with" I say harshly trying not to show any emotion. Hopefully it was working. I could hear his exasperated sigh over the phone and he started to explain. 

"Look. I have no idea who told you that I just wanted to use you, but it is not true. I am not even any where near that type of person" he says to start off. I wanted to believe him, but this is where my oh-so reliable trust issues kick in. I just can't. 

"How am I supposed to believe you when you couldn't even tell me the truth about who you were?" With asking this question what else am I supposed to expect? I honestly have it programmed in my shut off mind that whenever guys are asked a question involving feeling and emotion they just recite some over rehearsed answer. It is what I was used to. I obviously should expect more of Niall but at the end of the day, he is a guy. Every time I let someone in things go horribly wrong and I can not risk for that to happen again. But since he is trying so hard, I will listen to him and give him the benefit of the doubt. Plus I actually started to really like him. I just hope it's not a lost cause. 

Niall's P.O.V 

"How am I supposed to believe you when you couldn't even tell me the truth about who you were?" 

She was right. I mean it's not like she came up to me as a mobbing fan. I came up to her. I should have been honest. But it was hard to know that I can't always date normal people because they don't want  to know the real me

"I didn't tell you because I was afraid that if you knew who I really was, you wouldn't want to get to know me on a personal level. Everyone just knows me as Niall, the Irish one in One Direction and that's not all I am." I could tell that my words made her at least think because she didn't say anything for a while. The silence felt lonely and made me uneasy. 

"Kelli? Are you still there?" I ask still only hearing the wind whipping through the receiver. After a few moments of waiting, I hear her fragile voice make an appearance. 

"Sorry, I got ill. But I did hear what you said. I feel like an absolute jerk." She barely whispers. At this point, I'm not sure if I did something wrong or if I did something right. I wanted her to believe me but I didn't want her to feel bad. Everyone has certain reasons for doing things, but I just needed for her to trust me. 

"Please do not feel like a jerk. I should have been myself. That's what I want people to see anyway. So why lie? But I feel as if there a plenty of things you need to explain...such as the whole Lucas thing." I explained my side and now she needs to explain hers. Especially the fiasco with Lucas. The only way I can get her to trust me is if I show that I can protect her and that I'm really not going to hurt her. 

"I can't believe I am seriously about to have a mushy conversation about my feelings" Kelli said interrupting my thoughts. I almost forgot how closed off she is. If she tells me everything then that will be a huge step for her. 

"OK. Luke and I used to date and as all my other relationships have gone, he hurt me. There isn't that much more to that story but, today he stopped by just after you left and tried to take advantage of me. It was extremely scary. Not because he was violent, I had seen that before, but because of the way he was being violent. I've been through a lot been no one has ever tried to rape me before. It made me feel weak. I hated it." Kelli admits. The fact that I could have stopped makes me sick. What was I going to do? 

Kelli's P.O.V 

I sat on my bed in disbelief that I just spilled all of that to Niall. We talked on the phone for a couple more minutes and we both decided we should get some rest. I felt like he wanted to say we should hang out before he leaves but we both know I may not be ready for it. But that was not the only thing on his mind. I could tell. I was still deep in thought over it when I sensed someone at my door. It was Jade. 

"Hey" I said letting her know that she was acknowledged. Something seemed off. Why did everyone seemed distracted and disturbed all of a sudden?!? Wasn't I the one that just went through a traumatic experience. I don't want to sound self centered or anything but I literally just made myself sick from drinking because of how awful things have been but I'm the one who has to insure everyone's sanity. Before I could even ask her what's going on, she disappears. That was weird but I am no longer in the situation to care.I shower trying to wash the sliminess of Luke and my current drunken state off of me. Once I'm finished I go to sleep trying to forget it all. 

*One Week Later* 

The boys had to continue back on tour but every time they had a small break they would come back. Me and Niall were a lot better but I still wasn't ready for a relationship.He's so great but I'm not. On top of our recent reconciliation, Jade has been really distant from all of the girls. Since I'm not the type to sit down and have a deep conversation, I don't know what's wrong with her but I'll ask. Eventually. 

The girls and I had decided that it would be good to go to the movies. Once we were inside and had paid, I felt a strong pair of arms wrap around my waist. I turned around slowly hoping that I wouldn't have to run for my life but once I was fully turned around I was surprised to see Niall. 

"What are you doing here?!? I thought you had a show tonight?" I asked while jumping up to hug him. It's like every time something is on my mind he appears to make me forget it and how stressed out it was making me. If only I was good enough to date him. Plus he hasn't even asked so he must know I come with too much baggage. I shake these thoughts off and greet the other boys. After this is all done we head into the movie. 

Niall's P.O.V 

The boys and I get tiny breaks between shows and we like to come to Chicago. I say it's because I love the place, which I do, but it's mainly because of Kelli. I know it has only been near two weeks since we've met, but I really like her. I'm not going to say it's love or anything because I still have a lot more to learn about her. All I know is that I actually did want her to be mine. 

Once we got in the theater, I sat next to Kelli and put my arm around her. At first I was scared she was going to reject it but she just got closer to me. Nice. The movie was good but the whole time I felt like someone was watching us or something was unusual. I just couldn't put my finger on it. I still haven't told anyone but the boys about my suspicions of Jade. I was just getting on Kelli's good side and I didn't want to ruin it by saying I suspect one of her best friends wasn't who she says she is. My mind was still consumed in my thoughts when the movie was over. 

"Is everything OK>"Kelli asked bringing me out of my concentration. I assure her that everything is fine, but I can't shake the feeling that something is wrong. 

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