Regrets Of Spencer Reid

Chapter 1

Today as usual i wake up feeling refreshed and ready to work but now i have a constant worry for my girlfriend mauve. mauve was being stalked by someone but in the back of my mind i thought it was her ex-boyfriend. Usually 9 out of 10 women or 88% of women in the world get stalked by their ex-boyfriends online. You see me and mauve never really saw each other  but sometimes i would feel alone as if all of this wasn't real and to me that seems absurd but hey who knows right. Everyday at noon we would call each other on the payphone that's across the street from my office to see if she's been doing okay and sometimes i would lose track of time and stay there for and hour or so talking to her getting to know her more more frequently and she would get to know me more and more too. Sometimes my boss usually has to call me to tell me that times up or that if i don't get off the phone that i would out of a job. Even though i don't know what she looks like, i can make her out in my thoughts and picture what she would look like to me. Tonight is a special night because it's the first i get to see her! and i'm really nervous but at least i don't have to pretend anymore.

* Two hours later*

Well i'm almost at work and ready to start a new day! I recently got a call from Hotch saying there was a girl who was killed on the lower east side of Los Angeles and that i needed to hurry so that we can get there and talk about it on the plane.

* on the plane*

Hotch: the girl your looking at is Sarah she's 35 lives alone and she has one child Adam. Adam's principle called the police after his mom didn't come to get him and they found her lying dead in her kitchen with a knife sticking out of her stomach, and a "W" carved into her head. Also her entrails was sprawled on the floor next to her spelling "w".

Derek: So the unsub kills the victim and leaves his initials so that we have a place to start?

Spencer: i don't think so... i believe he's leaving this letter to represent something.mostly killer leave a mark or letter to say that it's connected to the victim he killed or to write out piece by piece a name of something of that. killers don't usually leave lettering or number as an initial to themselves but to the for the victim he just killed. Killers usually leave a full name or something like that to say come and find me like a hide and seek game or something of that.For this unsub the letter "W" has some great significance to Sarah as well as to him.

JJ: So the unsub in someway connected to Sarah as well as they both know what "W" means and she was killed because she probably was gonna tell someone like the police right?

Hotch: Maybe that's the case but who knows.

David: Yeah but either way it's sure as hell a bad way to go.

* An hour later* 

So now we arrived at the scene and its gruesome one. Blood splattered all on the walls etc. i walked into the bedroom to see if there was any other clues as to who murdered her. All i found was the murder weapon and there next to it was a letter to me? 

~ Spencer Reading the letter~ 

Dear Spencer Reid,

                                   how does it feel to be lost in a world without hope?     

                                                                                                                                      W.

~ end of note ~

I looked at the letter and read it almost like a million times but i can't seem to make something of it. As i repeat the words in my head they only seem more and more creepier as in this just the beginning of the end like the death of me is not very far but i just brush it off like it's just another serial killer wanting me to feel threatened as in i did something that made the him mad, in which i don't know as of yet.