✅MIRAGE [ English Version ]

Ch - 44. When the pain ends

MIRAGE
[YIZHAN -Wattpad]
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Zhan visualized the young black-haired man on the screen in front of him, this was the only image he had left of his other half. Photographs, videos, personal objects with some meaning, all of this had been lost over time, some simply threw it away so as not to remember the bitter past.

As time went by, memories were not created either. The only image that Zhan keeps with his brother after they became adults is a photograph that he secretly took while he was sleeping next to him.

It was as if Sean wanted to completely erase the record of his time on earth. As if he wanted his essence to be as fleeting as the sand that floats in the wind.

There, once again, was the face of his older brother, so identical to his own, now, like a bitter reflection..

- Glioblastoma.-Sean continued.- That was what I heard from the doctor some 4 years ago.- He smiled softly.- You know how I am, my short patience does not allow me to wait so I demanded the man to explain it better.- He lowered his gaze.- Zhan... brother.-He smiled again.- I know you did everything possible to keep me alive all this time and even if you don't believe it, it was something I valued and tried to resist but...- His eyes became watery.- I was already condemned to a terrible... and terminal disease.

- W...what?.- Zhan squeezed that PC in his hands, bringing it closer to his body.

- Do you remember the constant headaches? The dizziness, the irritability, even the weight loss. You thought it was caused by stress and at some point I thought so too.- He denied.- But it turns out that all of that was only caused by a terrible tumor that affected my brain.- He smiled as a tear rolled down his cheek.- In the end, I fought so hard to die that life ended up giving me what I wanted but in a terrible way.- He wiped the tear with his hand.- Forgive me for hiding this from you, you always took care of me, you were always afraid that I would leave you alone. I tried to endure brother, I swear. For you I tried to contain the terrible urge to hurt myself, the uncontrollable desire to end myself but....- He denied again.- I couldn't control this.

- Why?...- He burst into tears.- Why?

- I want to confess to you that when that boy came into your life and I saw how important he had become to you, I felt relieved. Relieved because I knew you wouldn't be alone anymore, that you wouldn't feel cold anymore.- He smiled.- And I... I could finally go... and rest. You have no idea of the pain I had to endure, the hell I went through. I tried to endure it and to act strong in front of you so you wouldn't notice because even if you don't believe it, you were the only important thing to me.- He licked his lips and smiled again.- I love you brother, I will always love you and I want you to know that everything I did, each of my actions... was thinking of you and your future. For you I would be capable of dying a thousand times if necessary.

- I love you too.- Sob.

- Don't suffer for me, you can be sure that now everything is better, that the pain is no longer there. Maybe I will meet dad and mom, although I don't think so after so many stupid things committed and in case that is so I promise you that I will kick dad's ass until he falls.- These words caused a smile in Zhan.- I gave the evidence to officer Volkov where they prove that I am the only one responsible, he will help me free you from guilt and he will also help me get you out of the country.- He smiled.- How ironic, isn't it? Me working with the enemy.- He sighed.- Actually... the guy is good.- He nodded.- And we made it difficult for him. Another in his place didn't even agree because you and I have nothing to do with him, even if you were his brother's partner.- He rolled his eyes.- Yes, what we were doing was not right.