Worthless

Worthless

Everyday I fight

But then I realize they are right

Everyday an endless strife

To get a somewhat "social life"

All the torment impales my heart

Seems there is nothing to set me apart

I come home crying everyday

I forsee no other way

Have the knife, ready in my hand

Life so far has no taste, so bland

But this I say will be something new

And now my friend, I bid you adieu

Because you will not see me again

Don't blame me, blame my pain

The knife just went through and ripped my skin

Over my face came a wide grin

Blood as red as a ruby comes out

Almost like a waterspout

As I start to close my eyes

I say my final goodbyes

Then as if it was all a dream

My eyes close, my heart bursts from the seams

My breath stops and then I see

The blinding light in front of me

And then for just a few

I open my eyes and enjoy the view

Cause now im in a better place

One where I can show my face

Everyone loves me here

Seems like im almost...revered

And even though I'll stay awhile

I know at least I'll smile

And through everyday and every night

I'll remember all those fights

And all those days I would say im fine

But there was always a fine line

Between ok and a lie

But now there is no reason to lie

Why lie when you can die

And be taken away from all the pain

You see, there is something to gain

The power of not being able to feel

All those words that were never real

So now you ask me why

Why would I let myself cry

And not try to rise above their words

Well to that I say

What would you do?

Live with torment all your life

Or give it up...everything

Sometimes there is only one answer...