OUT OF NOWHERE
There are a lot of things people like to say to you when they know you've had your heart broken. "It's okay." "You'll find someone else." "He wasn't good enough for you anyways."
And maybe you'll force the corners of your lips into a smile and you'll thank them for comforting you, but deep down inside, there's a black hole of emotions that only he can summon back into existence.
See, you don't want to find someone else. That's the problem. You don't want another person to come along and attempt to erase all the broken memories of quiet conversations and starry-eyed gazes from across the room. You just want to bury yourself within the blankets of your bed and cry. You just want him.
For god-knows-how-long, you'll be on the brink of despair. Your chest will squeeze tightly every time you hear his name and you'll harbor an elusive sense of hope that maybe something will bring the both of you back together again.
One day, you're going to see him with someone else, and it'll feel like a knife running through your body. You might hate him- you might hate her- but you understand that there's nothing you can do. The only way to get through is to move forward.
Days or months or even years will pass, and you may never stop missing him. Time doesn't numb the pain, and it doesn't blur the outline of what you once felt... but time does make it hurt a little less, bit by bit.
So if you want to break down, that's okay. If you can't bring yourself to delete his name from your phone right now, that's okay. If you want to be by yourself for a while, that's okay. Dealing with heartbreak is not about being strong, but being patient. You have to wait and have faith that your heart can be healed.
I promise you that one day, it will.
