I woke up and the bus was quiet. I got out of my bunk and grabbed some clothes and went to change. I walked out and everyone was asleep still. I sat on the couch and took out my phone. And I went on Twitter. 'Hey uh Damon I. Sorry bout what happened today's a free day I'll tell you why I acted that way last night. Uh just we must talk alone. I'll let others know when it's their time.' I sent him the tweet.
A few hours passed and everyone's up. I wanted to go to a store and get peace tea. No one wanted to go. Intel Damon saw his phone and changed his mind. We soon started walking there. "Soo why did you act that way last night?"
I signed. "My mom died when I was a born. My dad blamed me for it. My older brother. A year later we found out he had." I sighed "he had cancer. He later died when I was five. That's when my dad started drinking. He blamed me for his death too....o.one night he came home and beat me. That started years and years of beatings nightly. But of course he was drunk but smart enough to put the scars where people can't see them." I lived up my shirt a little to show tons of scars on my belly. Some still fresh" last night when you yelled at me...I thought you were gonna hurt me. I'm so used to when someone yells I get hurt. And then you got near me and I got scared.."
"I'm so sorry I didn't know. You know if you ever need someone I'll be there. But I can tel, you like Kyle way more than you do Johnnie."
"How-"
"I read you tweets I read comments you leave on YouTube. You love Johnnie and would totally date him. I see how you look at him. With love. But with that damn wall too. But then you look at Kyle. It's different your walls down but I don't see hurt I see something else." He knows about my wall.
"I have that wall to hid all that stuff about my life. All the pain all the hurt. But it's okay with you now. When I'm near you I'll let the wall down. Okay?" He nodded. After we got my peace tea and him star bucks. We went back to the bus.
"Hey lily. Hey Damon.!" They yelled. I flinched and Damon gave me a worried look. I need a hug. But I'm to scared to say it. So I went to my pikachu and started snuggling and hugging it.
"Lily are you okay?" Johnnie asked. I guess I should tell them all now.
"No I'm not" I sighed. " when I was born my mom died. My dad blamed me. My older brother got cancer. When I was five he died. My dad blamed me for his death he became a drunk man and one day he came home and beat me. He would beat me every night. And he still does. But he's smart about it he does it where you can't see." I lifted up my shirt to show my belly. Scars all over and some fresh cuts and that's stuff. "When people yell I get scared. I was grown up with when someone yells I get beat. I get scared when people get near me after a yelling and sometimes not after one. Because I I'm afraid you might hurt me." I sighed and snuggled into pikachu more.
"Lily. I never knew..." I cut Kyle off by hugging him.
"Group hug!" Bryan said.
We ended up playing never have I ever and posting it on YouTube. It was a fun day far. A great day off. We were near a lake for the warped tour the next day.the first day. To be honest I'm excited. I walked off the bus and went to the edge of the lake and sat. My feet dangling off the edge. With being 5 ft my feet couldn't reach the water. I sat there just thinking of random things....In till Kyle showed up.
"Hey, whatttcha doing?" He asked as he plopped down next to me.
"Nothing really. I guess I'm excited for tomorrow." I shrugged.
"Yeah, I hope you have a good time. I probs can't go since I'm not a youtuber." I stared blankly at him. Excuse me sir. I put on a video your going on tour with me. That means I freacking let you be a youtuber on my channel with me.
