The Love Story I've Always Wanted

The Aftermath

"Cas!Goddamit you stupid Angel!"yelled Dean"why did you let the bastered get the drop on you!"

"Dean I'm -"I tried to say before I was cut off by Dean as he rambled on and on about how he's better than this.

"So don't you ever do it again!"he concluded as he stomped to his room and slammed the door.I felt a tear run down my face as Sam looked at me and said

"I saw it.Everything.I'm so sorry.I never realized it,how many times have you saw Dean with a girl and held back tears?"He hugged me as I cried silently.Why can't I have my happiness?All I get is to see the person I love with whores more times then he has died and the freckles on his face combined.

"More then I can count."I said as Sam pulled away from the hug and said

"I'm sorry for you,I don't know what it's like.I hope you feel better."said Sam as he turned away.

"Don't tell Dean please."I said to Sam as he walked to his room.

And life was life again.I would give my grace for Dean.He won't even check if I'm ok after a monster attacked me.After a few days that incident Dean went out to a bar and dint come back until morning.

This repeated several times over the weeks,days,years and Dean never knew.He would catch me and Sam talking about it,but never knew what we talk about. Now Sam just looks at me and says I'll heal but I haven't yet.It hurts.

The time now is way after into the future.Winchesters have both died and I visit dean's heaven and see endless women.He doesn't even see me and thank God because I cry.Every time.I visit Sam's heaven with Jess and a family.Their life would have been great.I feel bad for Sam.I see a lot of people in heaven that the Winchesters friends.But Sam and Dean don't have eather sons or daughter.The line ends here.Forever.I can't take it any more.it's been over a melanin now.I cut my self with the Angel blade to my skin and took out my grace on earth and stab my self seconds later.I get a haven now finally and I see what I want to see.Me and Dean again forever now with little kids that we adopted.It is beautiful.Even though it's not real.It's the love story I've always wanted.