I have come to this.
Nothing else but this.
Drawn to what I miss.
Nothing else but this.
Im in college now, and I am badly and sickly miss highschool- not the school itself but the memories, my friends and those nonsense things that we do,the laughters and sadness weve been shares.
Its being serious now, be more futuristics and less time.
Time is rare when you're in college.
I'm 18 now and I am still thinking like an 8 year old selfish kid who only think what is right for her by not thinking the benefits of others.
The saddest part is that I am no in control of my future.
My parents arrange it for me.
Both parties were want their daughter and son to continue to manage their business .
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Well, I had no choice.
I was scared to marry someone I dont know and never met. Well, of course I will met him not now but maybe soon- but what i mean is that i dont know what he look like, his attitude etc. And I'm not yet ready for this... but I had to face it, it is for my future but i really dont know...If only I could do something to make this stop :3
May mga oras na napapaisip nalang ako na, bakit kaya ganun ang parents? Don't they have feelings? Is it right to force someone to marry someonesle?I doubt it.
Im in to it! Whatta big surprise it is, isn't it? I never dated a guy before.. call me dork. Nerd. Or whatever.. Wala akong pake. Hindi man sa bitter ako but Ive been broke- but now, i continue to be strong... actually, he was the one who brokeup with me for the reason that I'm still young haha.. yaah. 16 ako nung naging kami ni jasper at 19 na siya nun. Siguro nga 19tindihan niya na ang tunay na love... pero sa totoo lang masakit... lalo na pag first love mo tapos after kaniyang i break after 2 days may iba na siya. Sadnu? I considered that as a toy story.
Kung tunay na mahal ka ng isang tao, mahihirapan iyon na mag move-on.
I accept it. Nagising nako sa katutuhanan. Tama nga siya siguro, bata palang talaga ako. But thats okay atleast i learned. And now, 2 years na akong walang pake sakanya. I moved on.
Knowing
My mom told be that all is set. Set what?
"Youre going to meet jase next week" anak.
Ha? Ma naman, hindi ko pa alam. Im blank! Hindi pa ako ready.
Sweetheart dont be like that, your father and I just wanted you to have a brighter future. Ikno that itsbeen so hard for you these past few weeks anak.
"But mom, cant you trust me? Kaya ko naman ang sarili ko at hindi ko naman hahayaan na walang patutunguhan tong ginagawa kong pag aaral diba?. Hindi naman kailangan na magpakasal pa., i cried and run towards my room.
I was so afraid that i dissappoint them. But idk maybe because I Just love my parents so much it hurts. I just somethimes hate them, bakit sila pa ang naging pamilya ko?
Curse them.
Fuck their traditions.
But at the end of the day, I still love them that much.
Meet-Up
I wonder what he looks like.
Dinner were held at the house of my mom's friend Robert.
We ate and they are discussing things about us- Jase & Me. About our marriage, our plans etc.
Jase was cool as far as i can see, his so white and somewhat surprise I was amaze kasi he
Can speak tagalog na parang normal lang ... hindi yung parang sa iba jan na may kakaibang accent "you kno"
Matangkad siya and right now his 20and he's wearing a cap that suites him... he reminds me of lee min ho when he smiles :)
