I Remember it Like it Was Yesterday

I was standing in the tenth grade hallway. Tori, my best friend, was standing right across the hall from me. We weren't talking. She got really pissy with me because of something I said. The issue was, I was sleeping, so I don't even remember saying it. I told her that I was sleeping with Nicholas, her boyfriend. I felt so bad. I needed to do something to make up for the pain I was causing her.

It was ten to noon, and I realized that class was about to start. I stopped staring at her, and ran to class. I couldn't get my mind off of it. I wasn't sleeping with Nicholas. Why did I tell her that I was, if it isn't true?? I sat down in my seat, and grabbed out my math homework. I looked down at it. I remember doing it last night, but now that I look at it, there were water stains that made it really wrinkly, and a bunch of smeared pen scribbles that weren't even legible in the first place.

I smacked my head down on the table in front of me. I was so pissed with myself. The bell rang, and class had begun. My homework was nowhere near ready to turn in. All I could think about was Tori's face, the first thing I saw when I woke up from being smacked. I can't believe she actually believed what she heard. I just don't understand why I said it. I never lie in my sleep. I think that is why she believed it. She knows that I can't lie in my sleep.

I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. Mr. Sparkles wasn't in the room, so I pulled it out. His name was really Mr. Sparky, but he's gay, so I nicknamed him Mr. Sparkles. He doesn't seem to mind.

"I've been thinking, and I don't think that we should be friends anymore. I mean, after what you did to me?? Do you really think that that could be forgiven?? I've switched lockers with Connor. I can't have my locker next to yours anymore. I'm sorry. Wait, no. I'm not sorry. It's your fault. Delete my number. Bye." A tear escaped the corner of my right eye. I grasped the end of my long sleeve and pulled my hand up to my face, wiping away the tear. As I did so, my face became a waterfall. I couldn't hold it in. Lexi looked over at me, realizing that I was silently bawling. She ran to my side and sat in the desk next to me, kicking Carlos over to her desk.

"Are you okay, Errynn??" She mumbled, grasping around me, holding me tight. She brushed my wispy bangs out of my face, moving my hands out of the way. I had black smeared down my face, and it wasn't coming off. She walked up to the white board and took an orange marker, her favorite color. She wrote a note to Mr. Sparkles: "Dear Mr. Sparkles, Errynn isn't doing too good right now. I've taken her to the bathroom to get cleaned up. Please don't mark either of us tardy, because we are both here. Thanks. -Lexi."

I stood up, walking up to the front of the class. Everybody started to laugh. I started to cry even harder. I don't know that I could live without Tori. I need her. She is my other half, that always makes me laugh. She is my dearest friend, forever til the end. I NEED her.