You and I (Tronnor)

Go away freak!

"Troye?"

I couldn't contain myself any more, anger and disgust fill every inch of my body giving me the strength I need , without thinking anymore I walk directly to where Tyler fucking Oakley and slap him in the face so so so hard that I hope it will leave a mark forever.

Usually I'm not like this I've never like violence but I'm so mad and broken that I didn't realize what I did yet the man that I love, cheat on me, so felt no guilt. Now that I express my anger my sadness comes back. I feel used, I feel terrible, I feel broken.

"Why would you do this Tyler?!" I cry harder "I leave everything to come here with you! Why? I'm not good enough for you?" I hiccup holding me with a wall trying hard not to fall "Tell me Tyler what you want from me? I give you everything, everything!" I let out sobs "And you just sleep with someone else when I'm not in home with you" I fall in the floor of the apartment and look him in the eyes trying to find any hint of blame.

Tyler didn't say anything, he look at me with sneer as if I'm nothing he longer care about.

"Don't be overdramatic Troye" he laugh with a sarcastic tone " I knew you are doing the same, that's why you go outside today, telling me the stupidest lies, you really think I believe that you were in the hospital today? Hahahahahaha I'm not an idiot Troye!" he snap and my breathing becomes heavier and irregular.

Those words hurt me, he thought I was cheating on him, I could never do that never ever I didn't have the capacity to do it but I know he is able to do it.

"I was in the hospital!" I yell wanting to be heard, I doesn't matter anymore now is time to tell him and just go away "and you know what? I'm fucking pregnant!" I yelled so hard that probably the neighborhoods heard me.

Tyler just stood there, looking at me, no track of any emotion just a blank face, I give him the proof, I handed him the paper where it explain everything, I was looking forward to had this conversation a different way but it seems that none of us had in mind anything else. After he ends the letter he confused look back at me.

"Remember the night? When we make 'love'?" I tried to explain feeling a lump in my throat.

"When we have sex just like the other times?" He looks me with a questioning face, and it hits me hard that he didn't consider it love. That night I give him everything I had as a demonstration of pure love and respect, something I regret doing now.

"Yes" I said with tears in my eyes "the next weeks I feel bad and I keep throwing up so I went to the hospital to know what happen and... it turns out that I'm pregnant with your baby" I wait for his reaction not hoping for anything special.

"Freak"

His voice as cold as ice and gaze as hard as a rock.

"What?"

"You are a freak" he stood up still naked, and he walks near me "I always knew you were a freak" his words make me feel worse and I wrap my arms around my tummy trying somehow to protect myself from his words.

"You are a monster" he shout it my face and grab my left wrist, then he throw me against a wall "what kind of boy would get pregnant, that's just weird"

He walks to me "it's funny that you think that we made 'love' it was just sex for me, I cheat on you every time I go to a bar with friends, don't make the mistake to think that you're special for me" he then smiles at me " let's teach you what is to have real sex, since you decide to interrupt us you have to pay the consequences" Tyler's words fill me with fear.