A Secret Isn't Secret When You Tell Everyone

Chapter 1

Devin's band, Motionless In White, had been on tour for the last 5 months. They'd gone from one tour to the next and had not been home in several months. When warped tour ended, they ended up going straight into Parks and Devastation with A Day To Remember. After that Tour ended, they had returned to Europe before going home for 2 weeks and then went on the 'Beyond THE Barricade" tour for Two months. The guys were tired and grouchy. They all wanted to go home and see their girlfriends and spend time with their families.

Devin had wanted the same thing. He'd not seen his girlfriend, Kendall since he left for Warped tour. She'd been visiting her parents in Washington when he came home for the two weeks between tours. He tried to talk to her as much as possible but she didn't always answer her phone. It disappointed him a lot at times but he shrugged it off. She worked for a modeling agency and he figured she was working.

What he didn't know was that she wasn't actually working. She was going behind his back and selling his secrets to people for the highest bid. You see, Kendall never really loved Devin. She only wanted the fame and fortune that came from 'dating' the bass player of Motionless In White. Devin loved Kendall a lot. He even thought she was the one, but as of this current moment, he was starting to think he was wrong, severely wrong.

As he walked into the apartment that they shared, he greeted her with a kiss. Even at first Devin noticed something was off. She looked different. She looked heavier. Her cheeks were more rounded and she overall looked bigger than he remembered. He said nothing because he thought nothing of it. He would still love her no matter what size she was.

However, when he found out why she was 'heavier' he was livid. When the sentence came out, his whole world stopped.

" I'm Pregnant."

She said with a smile. Devin was excited but he quickly released that it was not his baby. He had been gone for a very long time, and in that time, he had not seen her. Now if she were 8 months pregnant or something, it'd make sense that it was his, but as seeing she was only 4 months pregnant, it happened after he left.

Figuring out that she'd been cheating on him, started to break Devin. He had given her everything, a place to stay, food, clothing and EVERYTHING she ever asked for. He often spent most of the money he made on her. Even with the money he made from his clothing line, he began to struggle to make ends meet because she wanted all this stuff that was expensive and because he loved her, he got it for her.

So say he made 2,000 a month from his clothing line and everything else that he did as work, he had to pay rent that was 1500 dollars a month. He then had to pay the utility and electricity bill. After paying all the bills he had from owning his clothing line and everything in between, he was still broke. Now he never let his girlfriend know that, she thought he was rich but he wasn't. He made a lot of sacrifices to make her happy and she never even knew the extent of his sacrifices.

He often had to sell stuff online. The fans loved buying stuff he wore on stage so periodically, he's sold them on Ebay. He'd also have sales on his clothing line so that it 'appealed' to people. Half the time it cost him more to do the sale then it made for him to actually do it.

He was beyond broke and didn't know how he was going to make ends meet, but he knew he'd figure it out somehow.

All he could do when she said she was pregnant was stare at her. He was beyond words. When he gathered his thoughts he asked, 'How many times have you slept with him?" he knew that it only took once to get pregnant but at this point, he wanted to know how many times she's lied to him.

"Well, there are a lot of times. Are you counting when I was with him and pretended to break up or...." She said.

Devin's stomach fell to the floor. He felt like he was going to be sick.

" You've been cheating on me this entire time? Does he even know?"

"Oh he knows aright. Well, it was his idea anyways. He told me to get all that I could from you, for our new home. You've been a wonderful contributor to our home, where this little one" she said touching her stomach, "will grow up." She finished.

"You're telling me, that you used me in order to make the home where you plan to raise that child in? You took every single dollar I had and used it while I let you? Do you know what I had to do in order to get that money? I sold so many things that meant a lot to me because you wanted to buy something. I did it because I loved you. I did everything because I loved you." Devin said.

"You handed me your wallet and well, I just rolled with it. Buying stuff for a baby isn't cheap, and well, you helped us afford to raise our other child and now we will be able to afford this little one too."

"Excuse me. You are telling me that I paid for your other kid too?"

"Yup. Oh and it was very helpful."

Devin shook his head. The ring in his pocket seemed to drown him further. He had been so in love with her, he bought a ring and planned on proposing tonight, but that was shot to shit when he walked in and she was pregnant with another man's child.

"I was going...I wanted to marry you."


"Oh. Well that wasn't going to be possible anyways because I'm already married."

"motherfuck." Devin said as he roughly ran a hand through his hair. "So I was just some fucking money giver, wasn't I? WASN'T I? YOU SAW ME AS AN OPPORTUNITY AND YOU FUCKING USED ME UNTIL I HAD NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I GAVE UP TO MAKE YOU HAPPY? HOW MANY NIGHTS THAT WHILE YOU WERE AWAY, I WENT HUNGRY BECAUSE I COULDN'T FUCK AFFORD TO EAT? I HAVE SO MUCH SHIT I DO THAT AT THE END OF THE DAY, NO MATTER HOW HARD I WORK MY ASS OFF, I STILL CAN BARELY AFFORD ANYTHING. DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT MAKES ME FEEL? AND TO FIND OUT MY GIRLFRIEND OF 2 YEARS WAS CHEATING ON ME THE ENTIRE TIME, AND I ALSO FIND OUT SHE HAS A KID AND NOW SHE'S PREGNEANT WITH ANOTHER KID? Do you know how that makes me feel?" Devin said the last part sounding really defeated.

"Would you stop yelling at me?"

"Fine. Get your shit and get out of my apartment. And by the way, you can have the fucking bed and the god damn frame because I don't want it."

"I'm pregnant. You can't expect me to do work can you?"

"Fine. Whatever. I'll do it. But after that, I want NOTHING to do with you. You can go off to your little hubby and leave me the fuck alone. I never, NEVER ever want to see you again." He said in annoyance as he stormed off into what was once 'their room'.

He grabbed her bags and began to through everything that was hers in it. He also decided that if he bought, he was keeping it. He also had the recites to prove it. So he packed what was 'hers' and handed to her.

"That's not all of my stuff."

"Actually, what I bought you is technically mine. I paid for it, so I'm keeping it."

The doorbell rang and Devin went to answer it. Two police officers stood outside.

"Hello, we got a call about some yelling." Right as they said that, Kendall began to cry and say, "he was yelling at me."

"I got elevated, but I tell you, yelling at you for what you've done is the least of your problems." He said in annoyance.

"Is that a threat sir?" the officer asked.

"NO. Its me saying that I don't want her to live here anymore. How am I supposed to feel that our entire relationship was her using me to fund her other life. I went days without being able to eat because I couldn't afford it because she wanted some designer shoes. I work hard and I can barely afford to own my business and survive. So when she tells you that she's used you for the last two years, has another child and now has one on the way, how is that supposed to make me feel? Happy? No. I feel like shit."

"Ma'am. Has this man ever laid a hand on you." The officer said, ignoring Devin.

She was silent and then said, "No, but he's threatened to."

"I have not. I would never in a million years hurt a woman. I grew up with a Dad who hit my mother, I saw what it did to her, and I would never ever hit a woman."

"History of abuse in the family." The officer noted.

"Ma'am, has he ever verbally abused you?" the other officer asked.

"He's said some mean things before." She said.

Devin was getting upset. She was trying to make him out to be a bad person. He was at a breaking point.

"Please just escort her off the premises. This is my home; I do not want her here. Please just take her away. I can't do this anymore." He said defeated.

"Sir, you are asking us, to take your pregnant girlfriend away? Where is she supposed to go? I feel that if anything, we should be escorting you off the premises." The officer said.

"You're going to kick me out of my own apartment? Take her to her husband. I don't want her. I don't want her ruining my life further. Please." Devin begged. He even went as far as getting on his hands and knees.

"Sir. I am going to have to ask you to get up. Sir." It took Devin a moment and that wasn't fast enough for the officer. He pulled out his baton and then hit Devin in the back and said, "Why were you disobeying my orders?"

"I wasn't....i have...a bad knee. Getting up...takes me a...moment." He said in between gasps of air. The strike had knocked the wind out of his lungs as well as put him in a lot of pain.

The officer told him to get up again and when he struggled, he was hit again, and again.

Devin struggled to get up, but once he did, he stood hunched over. He felt a hot burning pain in his back. Standing made it feel worse but he knew that if he did not stand, he would be hit again.

"if you do not have cause to be in my home, I ask you to leave. You have hit me repeatedly. I do not wish to have more harm done by you. Please leave." Devin said.

"We have reasons to believe that you are abusing your girlfriend." The officer said as he then roughly hand cuffed Devin.

Devin began to move and the officer then pulled his stun gun and used it on Devin. He fell to the ground where the officer's hand cuffed him and stood him up roughly. As they put him into the police car, they 'accidentally' hit his head on the door getting in.

As he started to pass out in the back of the car, the last thought he had was, "can it get any worse than this?"

He had no idea what the future had in store, he was oblivious to what happened next.