It's too much. I feel like a broken faucet that's overflowing. My emotions are like rabid animals, once let out of their cage, they won't go back. They're free and destructive. They're eating me alive. I can literally imagine a black worm eating me from the inside, overriding my sensors and then, in the end leaving me empty and a shell of a person. I don't even realize that I'm crying until I hear;
'knock, 'knock.
Then my sister barges in. I don't even have time to wipe away my tears because she's already running towards me with a look of worry plastered on her face.
"Mariana. What's wrong?"
And because I need to show her that I'm ok and because she sounds like a crazed woman; I laugh.
Aliana looks at me as if I were insane. "What?" Aliana practically bellows at me; and now I'm not even sure if she's mad, annoyed, or worried about me. "Are you ok?" And this time I can her sincerity in my sister's voice. "I'm fine." I answer, and then add "Really," when she gives me her, quit bullshitting me, I can see right through you, look.
"Well. What do you need." I ask bluntly. All of a sudden my sister looks confused, "What?" "Oh I was just wondering if you wanted to watch a movie."
And just by watching I know she's lying but, I know better than to push. So I just respond, "Nah I am good, I think I'm just gonna write and listen to music. If that's ok?"
"Oh ok," I can hear the disappointment in my sister's voice but she quickly covers it up with a carefree, "Well if u need me I'll be downstairs." With that she leaves.
And Act 3 closes with me letting someone down, once again.
