June 24 1994

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by gtefuv

by gtefuv

June 24 1994

So I guess I'm really doing this, I don't know how to start these things, I'm confused. I think you are too.

Hi I'm Lana, no I'm not Lana Del Rey, even though I wish I was, at least she has a talent that being able to talk. I can't. Well I have a tongue and I can talk but I'm not good at it. I'm awkward so I don't really understand why my parents decided to name me Lana. They should've named me awkward psychopath instead.
Yes. Before you ask. I'm a psychopath. I'm not entirely emotionless, I do have feelings and empathy, I'm not a sociopath or a chick with APSD.

I'm going to work for the first time tomorrow since I got out from insanity house who did not help me at all. The just drugged me up because they thought I was on a killing spree when I accidentally drowned my little sister in the bathtub.
I love death and I simply wanted her to experience it before me because I'm a great sister.

My mom can't even look at me in the eye anymore. And that hurts me a lot. My mom is the only one I don't want to hurt. But I guess I've already done that. When I killed the only normal child. And now she's left with me.

My room is pink and I like it. It makes me look innocent and nice, at least that's what my mom always told me.
I guess she really wants me to be normal, that's why I decided to get a job and eventually move out. Because ever since I was born my moms dark circles has grown bigger and bigger.
My mom thinks I'm going to hurt her when she's sleeping that's why she stays awake at night hence her dark circles.
I don't blame her though, I hurt my dad in the sleep, which later ended up in him leaving us.
I haven't heard from him since.

So first day at work tomorrow, wish me luck!

Good night

Lana