Mr.Sexy and Ms.Nobody

What did you say

I sat down on the couch eating bread to soak up the drinks.

"What the fuck Alley" Luke asked me

I frowned" you guys don't let me do anything so when I get the chance I go all out" I shouted

"At least she's sobering up" Lee said patting my head

I gave him a dirty look

"She's right bro what did I say on our way here" Lee said I acted confused

"What do you mean Lee what did you say" Man I was good at acting

"Bro you were wrong because if we did that stuff like that it would be a repeat of tonight"

I sighed and got up Luke shot me a look that told me to sit down but I didn't care I squeezed in-between the guys Lee gave me the same look Luke did.

" I don't know what was said but I must speak up! You guys don't let me do anything ever, I'm my own person but you tell me what to do if you directed me that would be fine! I do not do bad things I am a good girl and I had to many drinks ,you can not hold that against me! I did one thing that got out of hand and it is unfair that I am blamed for all of it! Half of it is your fault for not guiding me and the other half is my fault for not knowing when to stop"

I shouted pretty loud I hope they understood Luke was shocked and I looked to see Lee smiling

" I won I told you we should have loosened the rains and let her be her own self and like she said she didn't KNOW when to stop" Lee smirked

I pushed both of them out of the way someone grabbed my arm

"I'm sorry very sorry I didn't know that you didn't know when to stop drinking when I first started I had the same problem." Luke said and pulled me back

"Awe I want to hug her too" Lee shouted running over and hugged us

I could feel Trent's presents

Luke took me down to the couch and pinned me down I laughed

" No you cant do that we are in the friend zone" Lee shouted

"What's the friend zone" Luke laughed

"When a girl decides that you're her friend, you're no longer a dating option. You become this complete  non-sexual entity in her eyes, like her brother...or a lamp" Lee screamed

I laughed and so did everyone else

" I just realized I have never ever been in a friend zone" Trent said

" On that note I'm going to bed" I shouted and ran off to the bedroom.

I layed there thinking all night.

Maybe I should have sex? Nah I cant! But I have to! I'm still a virgin! I cant!

I started thinking of the reasons I should and shouldn't

I should because maybe I wont be so lame, I should because it would be a huge wait lifted off my chest! I should because maybe people wouldnt think I was a dork anymore.

I shoulnt because I will always be lame, I shouldnt because I could never get that back. I shouldnt because I will always be a dork!

Ugh I should wait intill I get married...but I dont want to!!! I should wait till I have a steady boyfriend!!! But I dont want to!!!

 WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!