Sons Of Anarchy

Afraid

It's been two weeks since the funeral. We're all getting back to thins but Opie is on a rode trip. I'm worried about him. Since the funeral he hasn't talked much. Jo has been acting kinda strange ever since my accident and I can tell how worried Juice is. This club is falling apart and Jax, Piney and I are the only ones who notice. I think Chibs might but I don't wanna ask.

I've been look at Harley's online and customizing them. I'm trying to do it in secret but I think Happy and Jax saw me up on the roof with my laptop the other day. I have a feeling I'm not going to be able to buy this bike on my own anymore.

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I can't believe they did this. I'm happy but I was hoping to get it myself.

Jax and I are at this house. I was going to go get in my car to head over to the club and there it was. My customized Dyna Street Bob. Mat black, awesome rims, and a SAMCRO written on the left side of the tank, and the grim reaper on the right. Jax was still sleeping on our room.

I ran down the hall and jumped on him. "WHAT!? WHATS GOING ON!?" Jax held franticly flailing around with worried and scared look on his face.

"Haha THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU. Your the best husband in the world." I said kissing him.

"What are you talking about. Are you going crazy." He mumbled and flipped me over to my side of my bed smiling at me.

"The bike Jax thank you!" I laughed out.

"Oh that. I thought you were just saying I was the best husband in the world because I am." He said leaning forward and kissing my lips. Then Able started crying. "My boy. The master of timing." He kissed me one more time and went and got Able.

"There's my baby boy." I smiled and Jax handed him to me. I kissed Ables forehead and fixed his beanie. "Mommy and Daddy have to go to the club. We'll be home soon my beautiful boy." I said walking him to the kitchen.

We left Able with a nanny and head to our bike. I was baking out of the garage when I started getting flash backs of the accident. I froze. I started shacking and Jax came up and grabbed my hand. "You okay?" He asked. I looked at him. I could tell he could see the fear in my eyes.

"I'm scared Jax. All I can think about is that damn accident." I wasn't gonna lie to him. He would find out anyway.

"If you want to take the car or ride with me that's okay. Just remember that your ridding with me. I'm not gonna let anything happen to you." He said and patted my hand.

"Okay. I'm taking my awesome bike to brag to my sister about wether I am ready or not. Let's just hope I don't crash." I said the last part under my breath. I turned my bike on and we rode to the clubhouse.

I baked into my spot that has been empty for months. Everyone was here. It's my first club meeting since I was in the accident. I walked into the clubhouse and Gemma looked at my. Surprised that I'm wearing my cut no debut. I looked at her and gave her a fake smile and walked into church. I got cheers and hugs from everyone except Tig and Clay.

We talked about a gun run witch Clay tried to get me to stay behind from but I'm not listening to him and I told him I'm ready to go. He also is hopefully smart enough not to argue with me. I could tell my dad was uncomfortable with it but he won't try and stop me since he knows I can handle my self.

Clay had me stay back and was asking me why I wanted to go. I told him I knew what he did and that if he was try and stop me from anything I would tell the club he sent Tig to kill Opie and killed Donna by accident. He looked at me shocked and I slammed the door behind me. Good thing everyone was outside they would have asked what the hell happened.

I walked outside and Jo came over to me. "So your going on the run?" She asked kinda jumping up and down.

"Yup. Let's go for lunch just us two." I randomly just tell her we're going for lunch sometimes for no reason. This time I just wanted to show of my new bike that Jax got me.

"We can take my bike since your isn't here." I just looked at her and smiled.

"I'm taking my own bike thanks." I laughed and walked over to Jax. Jo was standing there staring at me as I walked to me bike.

"What?!" She practically yelled and ran over to me. "Where'd you get the bike?"

"The best husband in the world bought it for me. I'm pretty lucky." I smiled at Jax and blew him a kiss. "Let's get going before I punch Clay."