Maybe my life is broken

Day 40

Dan  set down the note book that was now tear stained.  The entry wasn't finished. He walked to his laptop and switched it on. He saw himself in the screen. He was a mess.

He pulled up his camera and hit record.

"Hello Internet"

"It's me"

"I'm making this video to say I love you all"

"You have done nothing wrong"

"I am not ok"

"It's time for me to sign off Internet."

"Forever"

I broke down.

I couldnt take it

I saluted the camera

As always do

Knowing I'll never see it again

"Goodbye Internet"

I clicked off the video and uploaded it with no title and no description. 

I spent an hour crying after that scrolling through the comments in the video

"Tyler Oakley: we'll miss you, I'll see you soon"

"Caspar lee: I'm crying man, I'll miss you so much. I'm glad you can finally be happy"

And #goodbyeinternet is already trending.

Entry 40 continued

Dear Phil,

I'm sorry

I love you for eternity.

I'm grabbing the pills now

I'm taking them now phil

I'm feeling dizzy

I love you Phil

It had to be this way

I canb ar ely wr I te.

I l ov e yo u

Da

And I was gone.