Give or Take? boyxboy

Lost

LOST

They were like a tide of darkness and sorrow.

The people. People who loved Dustin.

All of them in black.

All of them mourning for the loss of one.

" I'm so sorry...", tears trickled down my face. I couldn't help it. I could be the reason why everybody couldn't see his smile now.

Dressed in clad black clothing the skies mourned with me.

It's tears dripping down.

There was no song... nor sniffles.

It was quiet.

A simple yet meaningful funeral.

We remembered his laughter. The smiles he made. It kept all of us from crying.

He was always happy.

We should be happy for him.

He's in peace now.

I watched from afar as they brought the blue casket infront of the hole.

He's going forever...

No, he is gone.

And there's nothing I could do about it.

I wasn't thinking straight for all I know.

I risked my life. I risked everything...

But I'll risk my life again for him..

This is goodbye...

And I want to say it to him....

Properly.

Eyes stared at me. I did nothing to stop myself. Eyes filled with despair. Eyes filled with anger. I ignored them all. I love Dustin Brandon and I don't care what they say.

His parents watched me, unmoving.

I placed my hands on the blue casket.

Weeping....

" I love you Dustin... did you know that?", I said quietly.

For all I know... he wouldn't answer. He couldn't.

I dropped on my knees. I didn't care that my knees were now stained. Or that my eyes were blood shot from the crying.

" I love you Dustin... I still do. Please...."

A hand layed on my shoulder. I looked up. Seeing Dustin's father.

" Then... why did you do it?", he voice broke.

I shook my head.

" I didn't... I... I love him."

Dustin's mother wrapped her arms around me. Our sobs were uncontrollable.

I felt something stir inside me...

I could give Dustin...

One last kiss...

It wouldn't hurt...

He'll bring it in the afterlife...

Then, there, he'll remember me....

I pulled myself together. Resting my hands on the glossy blue box in which my first love lay. I gathered my strength. I opened the lid.

Then, as if time stopped.

I fell on the grass...

Pushing myself away from it...

How?!?