I Tried

The Starting Point

"Cassie get up!! Get you're lazy ass down here."
*Yawn* Rolling over to look at my alarm clock.whispers "it's only 5 in the morning ."
"Here I come aunty."
So this is my morning.
I rushed down stairs to find my aunt in the kitchen ready for work with an angry scold on her face.(Fuck) "Why are there still dishes in the sink?"
"I washed the last night, they must have used them after I washed."
She gets really close to my face.
"These need to be washed before get home or there's gonna be a problem."
"Okay i got it." She leaves to go to work.
Well I'm already awake. I go and get the clothes from the dryer and carry them back up stairs.
I go back to my room(attic) to retrieve my shower things.
I have a good 30 mins in the shower be for there a knock on the door.
"GET OUT I GOTTA PEE!!" Tamera yells, she's my little cousin she only about 10 but she's a huge brat. I rush out of the shower so she can come in.
"Next time you better be faster or I'll tell my mom and you know what she'll do." "I'm sorry I'll be faster next time.'' I head back up stair only to hear her say "doesn't matter if she's clean she's still ugly." Her laughing rings in my ears. I only have two year until I can move out. That's the only thing that gives me hope.
I go and find my old blow dryer in night stand I try to blow bury it but having curl hair is a pain. Ugh!! Oh Shit!! I almost forgot today was the first day of school .
Well for me at lest for everyone else it's the third week.
I missed these weeks do to my hospital visits and recovery.
I have a self harm problem.
But besides that I find some clothes that aren't to old an worn and I settled on my faded black skinny jeans and a bat man tee with a black bennie. I had back down to see that after two hours my cousins are just waking up. Samantha is heading towards the bathroom while Noah is going back in to his room. I go to the kitchen to make breakfast for everyone. Which consisted of French toast, bacon with a side of fresh fruit. I decided to just take some fruit and clean up after they were done. Everyone's done and my friend who's a little older picks me up while my cousins take their car.They didn't like have me around them. My friend Brittany was the only person I had she's so beautiful with her tan skin, perfectly toned and long naturally curl hair. A lot of mistook her for my big sister but I never under stood why she so beautiful and I well.......I'm nothing compared to her. But she was like family cause she cared for me who else would have taken me to the hospital when I had tryed to over dose. She's amazing, I'm sad that I don't get to go to the same school with her.
If I could have gotten my application in on time I could have made it but my aunt didn't wanna take me and brit has a job so I don't like bugging her.
Ughh stupid Schools . I'm about a few blocks from the school when I see it's about to rain. I for got to get my hoodie when I was leaving. I really am stupid.
I guess brit noticed and say me pouting she tossed her nothface at my face. "Meany"I poured again. "So you don't need the sweater?" I cuddle the sweater "No I'll keep it" "Like I thought, don't let your cousins take this one, Okay?" She smiles joking about the sweater but they really had taken my things before. Bit enjoying the ride I turn on the radio and of course Ed Sheeran is playing and its one of my favorites by my favorite artists
" And your heart's against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck
I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet.."
We both love ed so this is the usual for us sing and seeing who's the loudest. "Cass don't be going soft on me" "Me , soft, NEVER" I screamed the next line. I always win I destroy the competition Touch down Boii. Well maybe she's letting me win but I doubt it.

The picture on the side is of Cassie she's small but loveable.