Just Another Guy

Chapter 1

* Molly's POV *

Ever feel like you're losing control and you have no idea why or how to stop it? I do. Only the overwhelming sense of numbness remains in my lifeless body. Sat here in total darkness swamped in my ruined thoughts, from which my mind struggles to break free. I feel nothing, just emptiness. It's almost as if I'm hovering above and watching my physical being. I have no words. What has brought me to this life? For that split second I see myself falling forward and plunging into the murky unknown and suddenly submersed and overpowered by unwanted images of the past.

I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep and that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare. When you wake up from a nightmare, you're so relieved. I woke up in a nightmare.

It was May 16, the exact date 11 years previous which held an event that is forever embedded in my head, my mothers death. I shivered as the last memory of my mom sprung to mind, the pigment in her skin slowly fading as her eye lids blanketed her charming blue eyes that I would see no more. Oh god how how I want to turn off all my feelings and erase every single memory.