Two months ago I could've been pregnant, I could've ruined my future with a baby. I know I should be happy I'm not pregnant but I've been depressed these past months. Dean and I have been arguing more and more, not over important things but things like who left the cereal out. I moved in with Dean a month and a half ago and things were great until suddenly out of nowhere. Things just, crumble. Yes I'm eighteen but when Dean wants to go out I can't go with him because he wants to go to bars and he comes back drunk off his ass. I worry about our relationship, it's not healthy, last night he came home and tried having sex with me and I told him no and he pushed me. It wasn't hard and it didn't hurt but the fact that he still did it pisses me off. I ended up packing some things and going to stay with Sam, I couldn't go home because my jackson would say "I told you so." Sam was my first of two options, Abby being my second.
This morning I woke up in Sam's bed in Sam's shirt and sweats. I walk down stairs and see him cooking breakfast shirtless. He's so muscular and toned and- no Kaz you can't fall for him he's your best friend. Imagine those arms holding you at night, imagine running your fingers down his back as- Kaz goddamnit stop!
"Good morning Kaz." Sam says pulling me out of my trance. He smiles and puts the plate of bacon, eggs, and toast on the table. He motions for me to sit and I obey. He stands at the island and stares at me. I unintentionally blush.
"Sammy stop." I say covering my face.
"You are too beautiful." He whispers before he turns around and cleans up.
After I eat I take a shower and I change into my clothes before I walk downstairs. I see Sam watching tv so I creep up behind him and try to scare him but he reaches up and pulls me over the back of the couch. I scream and laugh while he starts tickling me. Sam laughs and when he finally stops he is on top of me. I feel my heart beat pick up and the blood rush to my cheeks. I lose control of my body and pull his neck down so our lips connect. He doesn't hesitate to kiss me back, he puts his hands on my face to deepen the kiss while my hands grip his shirt. When he pulls away I realize I just cheated on Dean with his brother. "Sam I- I'm sorry I didn't mean too." He laughs.
"Just how I imagined." He says. "I mean I was jealous of Dean from the beginning but now, you are perfect Kaz." I blush. "Dean doesn't have to know." He smiles as he gets off me and I sigh.
I think I like Sam.
Three days later
I'm still staying at Sam's place and I haven't spoken to Dean since. When Sam and I get to school we walk to class together. I have me bag slung across one shoulder and one hand hangs by my side. I feel Sam brush his hand against mine. When I look at him he is looking forward but he smiles. I took my eyes and keep walking.
All throughout class Sam stares at me and I love it even though I shouldn't. After school Sam drives us home, once we get there we see that Sam's dad is there. We go in and Sam's dad hugs him and turns to me. "Well well well who is this pretty little lady you got here Sammy."
"Dad you know her, it's Kcatthreyine." Johns eyes pop out his head as he looks at me.
"All grown up aren't we Katy." I smile and he pulls me in for a hug. We hang out for a while before he says he has to go. Once Sam and I are alone I turn to him.
"Sam, I like you and I know I shouldn't because I'm with Dean but I can't stop thinking about you." I say. Sam smiles at me and grabs my hips to pull me in for a kiss but he doesn't he simply hugs me. "Sam."
"You are right we can't be anything, you are with Dean and he's my brother." He lets me go and walks upstairs. For some reason his rejection makes me want him more. I groan and walk to my room and shut the door.
Two days later
I went by Deans apartment and no one was home so I guess we can fix things up so I just go home. When I get there Sam is alone watching tv so I plop besides him and put my head on his chest.
"So how'd it go?" He asks putting his arm around me.
"He wasn't there and he's not answering his phone."
""I'm sorry Kaz." I shrug and get up to walk into the kitchen. I grab a step stool and climb up to open the liquor cabinet. I reach in and grab our sky vodka, I walk back to Sam and offer him some. "Nah not right now."
"C'mon Sammy just one drink." I plead. He sighs and grabs the bottle and chugs a big gulp. I follow exactly after him. We drink until we are tipsy. Once the bottle is empty I discard it to the floor, and turn to Sam. "Sammy why are you staring at me like that?"
"You're the only thing worth looking at." I blush and kiss him. "No Kaz." He says pulling away, I stand up and walk to Sams legs separating them and slipping down. "What are you doing?" He ask closing his eyes tightly and turning his head.
"Why are you pulling away? Don't you want this?" I ask as I kiss his jaw. When he groans I kiss again. "Are you scared to do this with me? Because I'm with your brother and it's wrong, and we shouldn't? I don't care Sammy, I want you." He growls and grabs my face kissing me. Our tongues are dancing around the silent room filled with lip smacking and moans. He pulls me up into his lap and pushes my hair out of my face, soon he pulls my shirt and bra off I follow his lead and discard his aswell. I break the kiss to unzip his pants, and pull them off. Once all our clothes are now on the floor he quickly lines up and pushes in me. I let out a moan and he kisses my neck. He soon starts pumping harder causing moans and gasps to take the silence.
"Kaz, goddammit!" Sam moans. "I'm close."
"Sammy, finish!" Moaning and dragging my fingers down his back as he releases in me.
