Anguish and Agony |h.s|(editing)

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She parked the car on the side of the road, took the key out then got out herself. She opened the door and waited for me to get out so she could close it. Once we got my bags, we headed to the front door of the foster home. My nerves were building up and I could feel the tears about to fall. I quickly blinked them away as we walked in.

"Mary-Anne?" The woman called out.

"Coming!" The woman, Mary-Anne, chimed as she came down the stairs.

They hugged then looked at me.

"It's so nice to finally meet you, darling." She quietly spoke with a warm smile.

I looked down at the hardwood floor, feeling very uncomfortable. Mary-Anne turned her attention back to the other woman. They talked for a few minutes and when they were done the woman kissed my forehead and wished me good luck and told me that I'd be fine.

"Here, let me take your bags." Mary-Anne chirped. "Follow me and I'll show you your new room." She smiled back at me.

I followed her up the stairs and down the hall to my room. I was surprised at how quiet it was here but then I remembered that it was a Wednesday afternoon and they were probably at school.

"Here it is!" She exclaimed.

I walked in and looked around and to my disappointment I had to share a room.

Was the other girl nice?

Was she weird? 

Is she going to hate me?

My brain was moving a mile a minute and I was increasingly more nervous.

"Do you want any help unpacking?" She asked, placing my bags on the bed.

I shook my head 'no' and she walked out, leaving me alone to panic. I calmed myself down then started unpacking.

I finished reorganizing almost half an hour later. I plopped on my bed and stared at the ceiling until I heard a knock at the door. I went to go open it but she started to walk in already.

"Sorry to bother you but I was just wondering if you wanted something for lunch." Mary-Anne spoke.

I shook my head and she didn't question again she just closed the door and left me alone. I decided that I was going to take a short nap so I laid down and soon enough I was sound asleep.

-

I woke up to the door opening and a girl about my age walking in. She looked at me then dropped her backpack on the ground and kicked her shoes off. She turned around and was about to leave when she introduced herself with a smile.

"My name is Ashlynn." She said.

I hesitated. "M-mirabelle."

"That's a pretty name." she spoke. "Well, see you later, it was nice meeting you." She said then closed the door.

-

My first week here was not as bad as I had though it would be but not as good as I had hoped. Ashlynn and I didn't really speak much and I was usually in my room. Dinner was horrible and I refused to eat. I didn't make any friends yet and I felt more lonely than I've ever been.

I missed Michael so much. I wonder if he's having a good time where he is. He probably was because of his positivity. I always envied him for that trait. Even at the worst of times he kept a smile on his face. He'd always say that we were going to be okay and that we were fine. I admired him so much; I looked up to the person he's become. I loved him.

I was suddenly ripped out of my thoughts when Mary-Anne walked in. "Mirabelle, sweetheart. We need to talk." She spoke with sympathy.

My heart stopped. I hated these conversations. I took a deep breath and braced myself for her words. She cleared her throat and continued.

"There's... There's a man that is interested in adopting you." She spoke, just above a whisper.

My face dropped. My breath increased and I began to shake my head back and forth.

"I'm sorry sweetheart but it's not up to you. I know it will be hard for you but.. he's a very nice man and he'll take care of you." She tried to convince.

I wasn't having any of it.

"We've been talking for a few days now and he seems very nice. I'm sure you two will get along great; you just have to accept him." She informed.

"He's coming by tomorrow afternoon just to meet you." She continued.

Tomorrow? Why didn't she tell me earlier? There's no way of getting out of this now..

"Why don't you get some sleep, honey." She coed while tucking the stray hairs behind my ear.

I got comfortable in my bed and she kissed my forehead then said goodnight. I couldn't sleep. All I could do was worry about the man coming to meet me. I fell asleep at around 2:30 and slept until almost 11 o'clock.

I was woken up by Mary-Anne shaking my shoulder telling me to shower if I needed to. I sleepily got out of bed and made my way to the bathroom. I stripped out of my clothing and stepped in the steamy shower. When i was done I got dressed, brushed my teeth and brushed my hair.

I wore one of Michaels old maroon sweaters and black leggings. The sweater felt like a security blanket which calmed my nerves a little, but not that much.

I sat on the edge of the bed waiting for Mary-Anne to call me down. My anxiety was past its normal point and my stomach was turning non-stop. She called me down moments later and I awkwardly walked down the stairs.

My hands were shaking. I tried to stop them but it was useless. I kept my gaze on the floor or my feet that were covered in ankle high black socks. I guess Mary-Anne noticed how panicked I was because she began to rub small circles on my back with her hand. It didn't help.

"Hello love."

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Ugh sorry this is so bad.

Writers block 😒

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