Uncontrollable love (Nash Grier fan fiction)

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(Im gonna start doing the chapter names with emojis🌚) 

Aaron's POV

About three weeks after we walked in on ricks death and Alison had time to get over it, everything was going great. Alison and Hayes went on their first date yesterday and they will probably date.

(If you can read while listening to music then listen to "I think I'm in love" by kat dahlia while you read this. I gives it more emotion.)

Nash and I had gotten closer. I think I was catching feelings for him..we had multiple study sessions and we always hung out. It didn't hurt. But I tried to keep myself from getting attached. So far it wasn't working. I didn't know if this is what you called actually falling for someone but I felt about Nash the way I did no one else. I hadn't said anything to him. But I was going to after school. Right now I was walking outside to meet Nash so we could walk home from school together.

I was so happy to see him. But when I walked around the corner and saw him making out with another girl I broke. I don't know why. Because we were just best friends. I just stood there trying not to let the tears fall. But once Nash looked over at me I let them freely flow down my cheeks. He started to talk but I ran towards my house. I just kept running. Not stopping for anything.

"AARON WAIT"I heard Nash yell. I just continued crying and running. I had never cried over a boy. But this was different... I felt like my insides were being torn. Like...I was getting hurt. Just like my mom said.

When I reached my house I dropped my bags in the yard and fell to my knees. Putting my hands over my eyes. Nash soon came up to me.

"Aaron...I didn't know.." He said. I stood up and faced him. Still crying.

"Nash you told me it wouldn't hurt! You promised me you would never hurt me!!!! You told me I would always be happy!!!! You promised!!! I hate you Nash Grier. I can't believe you did this to me!! This hurts!!!! I should've never trusted you! Ever! Fuck you Nash!!" I yelled in his face.

I picked my bags up and ran to my room. Wiping the tears from my eyes. I locked my door and ran into my bathroom. I fell to the floor and kept sobbing. I don't know what this was. I don't think it was love.  But If it was...my mom was right. I took the same blade I hadn't seen in about a month out from under my sink. I looked down at the scars on my wrists.

'Why? Why couldn't you have just cut so deep you died. Nash doesn't care about you. He never did. He just felt sorry for you. So here's for being worthless. Here's for being alone. Here's for being an idiot. Here's for breaking your moms promise. Here's for believing in a boy. Here's for ever hoping things would get better. And finally...here's for trusting anyone.' I said to myself as I made a cut deeper and deeper into my wrists after each sentence. I looked down at the blood coming from the cuts on my wrists. I just cried. And cried. And cried.

I heard my door bust open and shuffled around trying to hide my wrists. Nash barged in the bathroom door.

Nash's POV***

I didn't know Aaron liked me. I knew I liked her. But I thought she didn't. And I didn't wanna wait forever. I barged into her bathroom. I saw a razor blade on the floor. Covered in blood. I looked at Aaron and she just stared at me with cold eyes.

'This is all your fault' is what her eyes said

I slowly bent down and pulled her arm towards me. I saw seven deep cuts.

"Aaron...."I said

"Don't Aaron me! I trusted you!" She yelled

I stood up and pulled her up. She tried fighting me.

"Stop. We have to clean these and bandage them." I said

She sat up on the counter and I cleaned her wrist and bandaged the cuts.

She jumped down and ran outside. It was pouring down rain. Which is strange for Cali.

"AARON STOP" I said running after her.

I reached her. I grabbed her good wrist and spun her around. I searched her eyes for any emotion. All I found was hurt.

"Nash. Let go of me" she said softly

"No." I said

I continued taking in everything that was going on

"Nash let me go or i will slap you and it wi-" she started but I crashed my lips to hers and wrapped my hands around her waist. I pulled her closer to me. We pulled apart and I leaned my forehead against hers.

"Aaron. I'm so sorry. For everything. But I was tired of waiting. And I know you don't want to forgive me but...Aaron. I- I uh...I think...I think I....i uuhm. I think I'm in love with you...and. Btw. You were my first rain kiss." I said softly

"Nash...I don't know what this feeling is. But I know that I have feelings for you. And...that really hurt me. Seeing you with that girl,...and ok" She said laying her head on my shoulder.
I wrapped my arms around her a hugged her tightly.

"I'm sorry Aaron. I was just.....I felt like you didn't want me. But I need you. I need you in my life. Forever." I said

Hayes and Alison walked up

"We're just gonna....go inside.." Hayes said and they walked passed us.

"Nash. I..I need you too...but I feel like you don't really care" she said looking hurt.

"Why would I not care?!" I asked searching her face for anything but sadness.

"Because....it's like after I told you everything you tried to get closer to me. Just to turn around and tear me down. I'm sorry Nash. But I need time alone. See ya" she said sniffling and walking inside

Aaron's POV***

"Hayes. Can I talk to Ali?" I asked

"Sure. You ok?" Hayes asked

"Yeah." I said and Ali and I walked upstairs

"Aaron. Why did you cut?!? What's going on?" She asked and I started crying again.

"Nash..." I all I could manage to get out.

"Aaron. Listen. I suppose he hurt you? So. Listen. You have to get your heart broken in order to ever get stronger. You have to experience the pain in order to ever love again. Was it love...?" She asked

"I don't know..." I said

"Well. You're balling your eyes out. You have cuts. And you just let him kiss you. So I think it is..." She said

"I don't know..." I said softly. Alison embraced me in a hug.

"Just stay away from him. We're on winter break. And there is three weeks in that So at least a week ok?" She whispered

"Ok. Thanks Ali" I said to her.

"Anytime Aaron. I'm serious" she said and i slightly smiled.

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