Oikawa Tooru x Reader {{Mine.}}

I wish.

Face was still red as you've already sat on your seat, tapping on your cheek multiple times, head was steaming from recalling that scene, seriously with someone you hated. You fell on him. Just how ridiculous. You clicked your tongue, running your dainty hands within your hair, flipping them in one effortless motion.

~after classes, during break time~

Opening your lunchbox, eating together with your classmates, you soon held the end of your chopstick before pointing the ends, picking up your food before proceeding it to your mouth. Adverting your eyes to your side, focused on the door. Oikawa passes after the door, laughing, chatting with his closest friend, Iwaizumi. Oddly you steamed up, heart thumping rapidly, not at rest at all. You packed up everything before stuffing them back to your bag, you just lost your apetite.

"(Y/n)-san, are you okay."

"I'm absolutely fine."

~Oikawa's POV~

That awkward incident that happened way back there, I just couldn't forget, how she smelled, how she reacted, it was the cutest thing for me, I wish I could hold her longer like couples do. I want her to be mine. Only mine. I'll love her selfishly, that no one would ever steal her away from me.

During the break time, I walked down with Iwa-chan , explaining everything that happened between us. I wish you feel the same way I feel about you. But from all the questions I can answer, I can't answer your thoughts of hating me. I wonder why? Am I annoying? Even Iwa-chan says that.. I laugh, I smile, pretending that your piercing glare and your opposing manner towards me feels like blades piercing my heart, but I pretend... it doesn't hurt. Just why? I just need to confess to you soon.

I wish to hold you.

I wish that you'll be mine. Growing up old together.

I wish that I could hold your hands.

I wish I have those attitudes and looks in guys that you're looking for.

But I know it will never happen. But giving up will never also happen. I just have to... I really just have to make you fall in love with me.

I wish.... you understand.

~Your POV~

"You're annoying."

That word, escapes my lips everytime you're near to me. I just hate you. I wish I never met you. I'm sorry If I'm really like this toward you. I just really hate you.. your annoyance disturbs me, irritates me, I wish I could rip your face so I could no longer see that smile of yours...

That incident? It was no longer funny. Landing upon you, touching you, bumping onto you are the worst thing ever for me, I wish I could go back to the past, change everything, deleting my presence in this school, our memories, to keep you away from me. No. To keep myself from hurting you. Please give up already. Can't you see? You don't have any chances to be with me, Im making that obvious, to let you understand. But you don't. You're stubborn.

I wish you'll keep your distance from me.

I wish you'll stop that flirtatious attitude towards me.. no. To every girls.

I wish you'll know I'm different from others, I won't fall for you.

I wish you could see why I can't say yes to you without me from explaining it. I know its hilarious but please, understand me.

I love you Oikawa. But I can't. I don't want to get hurt anymore.. I know Im a coward. Venting will not help me nor simple chats. I've been played many times, now I fear that you'll do the same too. They said, 'The more you hate, the more you love.' No thats wrong. I'm trying to hate you, so I could move on. You really don't know how it feels when you go flirting around with other girls, it hurts. Im jealous. I can't love. I give up.

I wish. You understand, Oikawa.

~After school.~

The bell rang, you walked towards the door with gloomy aura around you. A sigh was exhaled from your lungs, every minute, every seconds. You tightly gripped onto the sling of your own bag, frowning slightly, but it's better not to mention about it. Faking a smile, you walked til you left the school. Today there's no Oikawa. He has practice which made you sigh out of relief, peacefully you had your walk to your house, laying down on your bed to get a rest.

~While Oikawa was practicing~

"Iwa-chan."

"What."

"Why does (Y/n)-chan hates me."

"Because you're too annoying, shittykawa, even probably me would h-"

Seeing Oikawa's face, sunken down in sadness and solemness, he immediately stopped his sentence from continuing. Instead, Iwaizumi gave a pat on his back which was more like a smack to cheer him up a bit.

"I'll ask her tomorrow."

"Really?!"

"...Shut up already and practice and focus."

The ball perfectly landed on Iwazumi's face, a rather amused gasp escaped Oikawa's lungs which sounded more like a mockery.

"Iwa-chan, it looks like you're the one who should focus."

"SHUT UP. TRASHYKAWA."

"Iwa-chan, are you mad--"

"I said shut up."

{{ To be continued --}}