Departure

As Time Goes By

I have got nowhere to go. Mentally. I fell and feel left alone. Cold out of my zone. I feel like I'm in my own zone trying figure if all the pain is gone. As time goes by I feel the coldness beneath gives me the batter to go cheat for about a week. I can't get deep. If life makes me wheep. Or I might just leave and go six feet deep... I'm not talking about suicide I'm talking about the other side without selling dope.

I don't have no girlfriend I got one real niggah Johnny. Jonny been my bro since the eighth grade. He lives with his uncle Pablo. He in a gang. Johnny is too.. I never wanted to be part of that life. Just niggahs trying to get money.

" Yo Johnny open up.." As I banged on the door

" Hold on my dude.. " As he struggled to unlock like ten damn locks.

" Damn do dude yall still got that wayside shit on yall door." As I walked in

" Bro niggahs be paranoid." As he looked around

" Fucking high ass." As I pushed him

" I got that dank." As he pulled out a bag of weed

" Bro is that chronic?"

" Bro better than chronic. Look closely you seem that white shit?" As his eyes got glossy.

" Yo you do that weird shit with crack? Bro that ain't good for you."

" Bro you ain't even tried it. So what the fuck."

" You know what that shit can do to you? It'll fuck yo ass up like it did Yanelly daddy."

" Naw that niggah was on weirdo shit."

" Naw he was on the same shit. I mean who am I to judge my momma don't give a fuck about shit. "

" Bro I love yo moms but bro she can be a bitch you know. It ain't yo fault yo pops left. Yo momma moved on to a niggah who beat her worse then yo dad. Yo dad was a ass but still provided. Yo moma aska for to much."

" I know I be asking her not to leave Celine with that weird niggah. I don't want no one fucking with my sister. She think all the bullshit and praying gone do good. That shit don't work. We just still two niggahs struggling. "

" Who her niggah?"

" That niggah Frisco from Compton."

" That's the chump who was trying to play my uncle. "

" Bro on God you lying."

" No dude. He sketchy as fuck. My uncle been hunting and trying to kill him and pull that set up on him."

" Bro he is sketchy. I wanted to fuck him up last night going through my shit."

" I know his ass is. We gotta fine some shit to do. Lets go to Long Beach and find some bitches. "

" I don't want a girlfriend."

" I ain't talking about getting girlfriend. I'm talking about busting a nut and bouncing."

" My niggah you gotta a girlfriend."

" Oh Leslie. She bi or some shit now. She won't let me have a three some with her and her sister. "

" Sick."

" You a little bitch now. Marco where you at."

" I'm just trying to focus on this rap shit." As looked at the time.

" That shit doesn't happen over night."

" Fuck the music for a day. And let's get fucked up." As he walked upstairs.

" Alright dude. Aint doing no stupid shit either tonight." As I follwed him

" My dude we just gone fuck and drink. We gotta go to the swap meat and get me some chucks."

" Bro what happened to the last pair?"

" They ripped. I was running away from five O and fell over a fence."

" You stupid my dude."

Tonight imma free style some shit at this party. And get my shit right and get my mind of things.