Why do I Self-Harm?

Why do You Self-Harm?

Well it's funny you should ask,

For I tell lies and I am selfish,

And I hide behind a mask.

I started two years in October

When my friend and I fell out,

She was the daughter of my boss,

And that's why I got thrown out.

She told the police,

the school, my mother too,

I was cutting and cutting,

With anything, I'd make do.

It got to the point of no return,

Around and around,

More cuts, more scars,

Until it was me who my mother found.

On the floor in my room,

Tablets in hand,

With a knife to my side,

I could barely stand.

I wished to be dead,

As I disappointed many,

Cutting my arms,

I was ruining my body.

Not coping in school,

I would shred my skin,

It helped me forget,

What I was failing in.

I hurt you mum,

I see that now,

But I couldn't stop,

I just didn't know how.

I hurt you dad,

To that I avow,

For we knew each other well,

But that's gone now.

My depression takes over,

And that isn't good

But I want to stop,

For I know that I should.