Love? Nah.

Chapter 1

"Love does not exist. That's something I learned at a young age from witnessing my parents divorce. Ever since I was a child I have been reserved. I've never truly trusted anyone because they could turn around and betray me just like I saw my dad do to my mom. I have sever trust issues and have never been able to express my feelings. Nobody except my therapist knows this about me not even my 2 best friends, Kristin and Blake." I quickly jot down in my notebook before the school bell rings.

As I head to my last class of the day I run into the last person I want to see at the moment, my brother. He is one of many reasons I self-harmed and nearly killed myself a year ago. Now I am 9 months clean and slowly recovering from my past. Very slowly that is.

He is a year older than me and is in college. Ever since I nearly died he has constantly been coming to my school to make sure I am ok. The only reason he does is to try to clear his slate for causing me so much pain.

"Hey," my brother says cheerfully.

"What do you want Brad?" I scowl wishing he wasn't here.

"I just came to see you and ask you if you wanted to come see a movie with me after school. So what do you say?" His cheerful mood still present.

"Why would you ever think that I would ever want to go anywhere with you? After everything.... Why do you even think I want you coming to check up on me? We both know you don't care and I don't want to see you anymore." I raise my voice trying not to get angry.

"Ok but I know some day you will come to your senses." He says never dropping his smile.

The second bell rings and I am late to class, thanks to my idiot brother. Feeling slightly angry, I run to my next class. When I get there the lesson has already started. I tried to sneak to my desk without anyone knowing but I was unsuccessful and now had detention.

The class went by quickly and most of the time I was writing in my notebook:

"I am a popular girl and most people know me as a bad girl but those people don't truly know me. They see the daring side of me that doesn't care but they don't know the reasons behind any of it. I don't care because I have already lost everything and I have nothing left to lose. I am not a hopeful person because I know that hope just causes disappointment."

"Laura!" Kristin and Blake call simultaneously.

"Krissy! Blake!" I mimicked their excitement

I tell them that I can't make it to friends night right away because I have detention like always, but that I will meet up with them later. They are used to me being late because of detention and it's not a surprise to them.

I head to the designated detention room and sit in my usual seat. Blake's best friend, Jason, sits next to me like he always does. Jason and I have had Friday detention every week since the beginning of sophomore year. Every week he tortures me for the hour we are stuck with each other.

Blake is one of the biggest players in the senior year and the others are Jason and Dylan. Jason drives me crazy with his huge ego and I have never really talked to Dylan. Blake introduced me to him about 2 years ago and we haven't talked since. Blake, like Jason, has a huge ego but he is actually likable.

"Hello Jason" I say glaring at him.

"What's got you into such a bad mood today?" He jokes

"Probably the fact that I have to spend an hour of my Friday with you." I say in all seriousness.

"Come on. The whole reason you come to detention every week is to see me and we all know it." He says smirking.

"Whatever" I say and start to take out my notebook.