A Lions Roar A (danisnotonfire and AmazingPhil story) Phanfiction

Phil looked across the glistening waters of the river, he stood still leaning against the wooden railings listening to the steady flow of the water as wind blew his hair gently. It normally relaxed him, made him feel free and alive, but today even the river had failed him. He closed his eyes taking in the peaceful atmosphere of the forest, the rain was gently falling onto his face and Lion was perched upon his shoulder as if guarding his master. However not even lion could keep his mind from wandering to Dan, Dan's hair, Dan's smile, Dan's eyes, everything about Dan was perfect. Something he himself would never be.

Phil's mind casted Dan's image before him, he had a twisted, evil grin on his face and his arms were tensed his fists curled into tight balls. His voice, his body, his presence. It all felt so real. He walked closer to Phil, his footsteps echoing off the tarmac. He grabbed Phil by his collar, slamming his weakened body against a tree trunk his feet off the ground. "Why Phil?" He yelled, his face screwed up with anger, "I hate your god damn guts! You are so freaking pathetic!" He screamed looking Phil in the eyes as if daring him to challenge. "Why the hell would I ever love you, you disgusting fag!" He boomed continuing his assault "I'm sorry Dan." Phil wailed, his bottom lip quivering violently and tears streaming from his eyes. With one more disapproving glare Dan simply disappeared, leaving Phil sobbing shakily on the ground, it was almost as if he was simply, never there, as if a second ago he hadn't been yelling at him.

Phil looked up, his defeated form was slumped on the floor. His ice blue eyes were glistening with unshed tears. Of course, Dan had been right. Who would ever love him? Dan could do so much better. Phil was abandoned, alone, confused and unloved.

Meanwhile back in the apartment, Dan paced nervously around the kitchen, he was worried, he hadn't seen Phil all day.

He had known for quite a while that there was something not quite right. Phil had stopped making videos, something he had really enjoyed doing. He also wasn't acting himself, he always seemed to stare out of the window for hours on end with a pained expression constantly etched onto his face. Even though he was in the apartment his mind was never at home, it tortured him, it was relentless, it made Phil feel worthless. Dan could never understand why. He cared for Phil, in a way that was more than friends and it hurt him to see Phil so upset, why Phil, why his innocent little lion?

"Phil" he yelled out of the window, earning a couple of judgemental stares from the people bustling about below going about their daily business. That was the thing about London. Nobody cared, the streets were always full of people, yet not one of them looked up at Dan with a look of concern or offered him a shoulder to cry on. They just walked past pushing the devastated cries to the back of their mind. "Phil please!" he yelled again his voice cracked and his screams turned to silent sobs.

Phil was still sat there alone, abandoned and lonely. He felt he deserved it though. He knew he was disgusting, he knew he was worthless and he knew that he should never go back to the apartment. Dan had told him earlier that he hated him, or he thought he had...

His mind once again deceived him. This time his mum stood in front of him looking down at her son with a disgusted look on her face. Her arms were crossed across her chest and her lips were pursed into a thin line. She harshly whispered "Your disgusting Phil, just look at you." Her eyes travelled across his body before she began talking again "In my opinion you would be better off dead." She gave him a hard kick to the stomach. Phil tried to crawl away, throwing his hands over his head as protection as his stomach burned with a searing intensity. "I'm sorry mom." he whispered his voice hardly audible and wavering violently "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry for being a fail, I'm sorry for being worthless, I'm sorry for being gay. I know its wrong... But, i, just can't help it. It's D-D-Dan" Phil cried out

"Like I said Phil, you're worthless, Dan is a better son than you will ever be!"

"Phil!" A panicked yell echoed around the forest. "Dan!" A yell replied more desperate and full of fear than the first. A few moments later Dan burst into the clearing and spotted his best friend lying on the floor quivering as sobs wracked through his fragile frame.

"Dan please don't hurt me." Phil cried shuffling away from his friend readying himself for the inevitable blow. But it never came. "Phil, why would I hurt you?" Dan whispered horrified at what his friend had just said.

"Because you hate me." Phil whispered the tears once again beginning to form in his eyes.

Dan's mind wandered. Why did Phil feel like this? Why was he in the forest and why was he sobbing? His Phil, his beautiful Phil was broken and it broke Dan's heart.

"Phil he whispered, kneeling down beside his friend rubbing his back in what he hoped were soothing motions, Phil flinched at his touch, but soon relaxed as he realised Dan didn't want to hurt him anymore. "I would never hurt you... You are my best friend and Phil." he said catching his friends teary gaze "You mean the world to me."

"But...But.." Phil stumbled over his words "You think I'm disgusting, you told me to my face that I was worthless!"

Dan frowned he was as confused as Phil was, "I didn't Phil, I have been back in the apartment worried sick all day." He whispered truthfully.

"But....But...But" Then Phil broke down. His sobs sounded loudly around the silent forest. "What's happening to me Dan, what's going on?"

"I don't know, I just don't know whats wrong with you Phil." he sighed running his hand through his hair "I'm so scared, Be brave Phil, we will get through this." He told him.

Phil whimpered as he slowly stood up, his legs shook and he collapsed, falling into Dans arms. "Never leave me Dan." He whispered his baby blue eyes looked up at Dan vulnerably. "I would never leave you." Dan replied quietly not wanting this beautiful moment to end.

With this the two boys walked slowly off into the sunset. Hand in hand, arms around each other. Whatever this was, whatever Phil had to go through. They would go through it together, and at the end of the day, that was all that had really ever mattered.

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Hey guys :D I was thinking of making this a story and adding new parts, yes or no? This was an RP with my sister smileyface110 so check out her stories :D ~ Scrump10