Spirit of the puzzle (book 1)

Chapter 9: unexpected emotion

"Are you sure Yami?" He looks up at me with those confused eyes.
"I'm certain."
"But you held up your half of the deal." He protests. I smile and ruffle his hair gently. "What happened?"
"I just changed my mind, don't worry little one."
He frowns slightly but doesn't argue with me. He simply closes his eyes and allows me to run my fingers through his hair. "I don't understand you." He whispers after a moment of silence.
"On the contrary, I think you understand me better than anyone I have ever known." I say letting my hand drift from his hair to his cheek where I allow it to rest. His eyes open slowly as they gaze upon me.
"That's not what I meant." He whispers as he leans into my palm.
"Then what do you mean?" I ask as I take a seat on the bed and pull him in front of me. He stands in front of me with a deep blush that seems to make him incapable of speaking. I wait patiently for him to meet my gaze. These are the moments that I wouldn't trade for anything, so I'm completely content with the slow and steady pace this moment has. I simply revel in the warmth emanating from my little hikari.
"I don't understand...how you...make me feel." He mumbles. I smile slightly as I pull him closer to me. My arms wrap around his waist as I nestle my head into his chest. His arms wrap around my neck. The warmth of his body radiates into me as I listen to his steady heartbeat which is the sweetest sound and gift that the gods could ever give me. "Like right now. I don't understand how I feel."
"Describe it to me." I murmur into his chest. He shivers from the vibrations that my voice sends through him. A small smile plasters itself onto my lips as I continue to hold him against me. In all honesty I feel just as confused as he is. My feelings for the boy have changed from a symbiotic respect to a devoted affection.
"I don't think I can." He whispers.
"Try." I plead. This right here is what I don't understand! I have never begged for anything throughout the entire course of my life and afterlife, yet here I am begging to my look alike. This boy has done something to me that I can't understand. My heart sings whenever I'm around him and I become completely engulfed in rage whenever I hear of him being hurt. The instance with Tea is a perfect example of that. Yugi. My soul yearns for you. I think it always has and just never realized it before you came into our lives.
Yugi takes a shaky breath before speaking. "My heart hurts when you are away or you have that distant look in your eyes when you try to hide your pain from me. No matter what is going on my mind always wanders to you, even when I struggle to focus. The sound of your voice sends shivers down my spine and I can't get enough of it." His body trembles and I look up to see tears streaming down his cheeks as he continues. "You make me strong whenever I feel weak, you comfort me before I even know I need the comfort, you are always there for me, you say everything that I never had the courage to say." My eyes widen in shock as understanding of his words wash over me. He knew what I had done and said to Tea. Yet he isn't angry at me, he is thankful. Small tears begin forming in my eyes and I struggle to contain them.
"You despise yourself for your past actions but I don't see a single fault! You may be my Yami but I still see a light in you!" He sobs. Warmth streaks down my cheeks. I don't need to touch my face to know that I'm crying. "Whenever we touch I can't help but smile and it feels like an electric current buzzes underneath my skin...you...you make me whole! You take away my pain and substitute it with joy! I...I think I love you Yami."
"Yugi!" I sob as I pull his face towards mine. Our lips gently brush against one another sending shocks of electricity coursing through us. His soft lips feel like rose petals on my skin as he kisses away my tears. "I'm so sorry." I sob. "I was so blind." He silences me by brushing his lips gently against mine once more,
"You call making me feel loved being blind?" He asks with tears continuously flowing. "I just wish that you returned the feeling." He whispers dejectedly.
"I do." I croak. "Great Ra I do." I say pulling him against me until there is no more space between us. "I loved you before I even realized what love truly felt like. You have shined light into this dark existence I lead. You are my light and my love. My precious Aibou!"
Fresh sobs escape him as he clutches onto me. He leans onto me and I allow myself to fall back onto the bed holding him close. I wipe away his tears as he continues to cry.
"Yami?" He croaks.
"Yes, little one?" I ask with a kiss on his forehead.
"Will you sing to me? Like you did before." I smile sweetly down at him.
"Anything for you little one."
I inhale deeply before I begin to sing.
"My heart was once just like a home
With many rooms and open doors
And I always let love in
It would change the rooms around and then
Leave them empty

'Till one by one I locked each door
And soon forgot what love was for
But I never gave up hopin'
So I left just one door open
In case you found me

So there's a room in my heart for you
If your trust has been stolen too
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before
There's a room in my heart for you

We'll paint the walls from blue to white
And set the mood by candlelight
Together we'll keep out the cold
And I'll still be there when we're old
If you'll let me

So there's a room in my heart for you
If your trust has been stolen too
If you walk softly on this worn out wooden floor
And leave behind you the hurt you've had before There's a room in my heart for you"

Yugi's cries have ceased and his breathing has slowed. I glance down at the beautiful boy in my arms. His eyes are closed and his face is peaceful in sleep exempt of the few remaining silver tracks where his tears had fallen. I gently kiss his cheeks before rolling him off me and tucking him beneath the covers. His body is covered by the blanket when his hand grabs mine and his eyes slightly open to look at me.
"Don't leave." I pull his hand up to my lips and kiss it.
"Never." I say as I crawl into bed beside him. His body curls up beside mine and I wrap my arm around him. The soft sound of his breathing lulls me to sleep as I fall into slumber holding onto my precious aibou.